wonderful journey

Humility & Compassionate

2012-02-10T00:56:00.001+08:00

..characteristic of Christ..

Time flew really quickly ever since last Fri, the start of an amazing journey with Dr Robi Sonderegger! I seriously didn't expect such a blast from his sharing! My gosh! Was telling Ben that he is like a combination of Pst Phil, Dr A.R.Bernard and Pst Steve Munsey! Totally blown away.. More than that indeed, relationships are very very important and treasured by God! It's really something that we human are blessed with!

Dr Robi inspired me in SOOOO many ways.. By the fact that he's a super intelligent psychologist and a super fervent follower of Christ, recognizing his identity in Him etc, is something so inspirational! Oh I thank God for a man like him to be in the midst of us, sharing not just stories about others, but life experiences !

Tonight was Pst Bill Wilson! There's no description could describe the amount of love and compassion he has for the less fortunate! Goodness.. It's rally about being obedient and responsive o that 'call' !

My goal this time round is to grow to be more humble and have more compassion for this world without vision! God's grace!

Always so thankful and grateful for God for everything that He'd done thus far, and is going to do in my life!:)

GOD IS SOOO GOOD:)

人日!

2012-01-29T19:50:00.001+08:00

at babe's place..

I'm not feeling my best now.. I'm so so tired! Wanna sleep soooooo badly! But well, it's nice to see how his family come together and Lou hei..

:)

CNY Day 2

2012-01-24T15:32:00.001+08:00

if missing someone can make me go so dull...
I rather not miss..

Grumpy dorbells this day :(! Don't really know why myself! I can't even rest because I have to do my project! I have always liked CNY.. Really.. Maybe not this..

And then.. the feeling you get when you get super short replies... Made me go -.- like this even more! You know, I rather not text, and still feel happy, thinking that you're busy that's why:)

Ang bao didn't reach the amount I needed to clear this month's BF.. Ooooo~ another after another!

I can't express this side of me out.. Babe would just say I'm having PMS .. So yup! I shall just tell Someone who will be my Comfort, my Love..

I feel like I'm going crazy by the seconds..

I lift up ALL into His hands!
TYJ!:) all will be good;) AMEN!!

Back to the basic of love.

2012-01-20T02:39:00.001+08:00

It's quite late already now.. And I'm really really tired. But today was a very very eventful day. Projects>shopping for shoes>steamboat with great friends>home>project>sleep... But through all these things, God reminded me about Him throughout!

Had a great time with Jas.. she shared about Cynthia and her love for the HS.. Amazing! Inspired. Impacted.

Then, I was texting Ben, and I realise how much I want to do in His kingdom, to serve His people, for His glory! This year is gonna be a great great year where I will grow to know God more and be moulded into Christ-like through discipleship! TYJ!

:)

Many things are running through my mind.. But I'm thankful for God for ALL things that had happened and that is about to happen!

GOD IS SO REAL.

Don like dragons..

2012-01-12T00:45:00.001+08:00

never liked them..

Current emotion: angst!

Currently my mum is obsessed with the dragon statue and she has 8 of them in her office, 1 at my home! This is not right! This only shows how crazily obsessed she is with a statue. I truly believe that blessings come only from God. And not this creature!

Constantly talking to it and patting it only makes things worst! Having a black 'jade' bangle only made my heart sink!

Nonetheless, I trust God! I'm binding it in the name of Jesus! No weapon shall come against His people!
No devil shall enter this family! My God reigns, and only He reigns!

"Satan, you have NO say at all, no position in this Tan family! GET OUT OF HERE!!"

God is good, I'm gonna trust with patience, for 0 'pi chiu' at all in mummy's office and home!

IN THE NAME OF JESUS!

TYJ!

Love language..

2012-01-06T15:33:00.001+08:00

Give Thanks..

2012-01-05T22:09:00.001+08:00

... with a grateful heart, to the Holy One...

Mr Stanley Jose Szeto Jia Ming
I guess I'm not the easiest girl anyone could have..
and you amazingly conquered another year with me.
Thank you Mr SZETO!
ILYVVVVVVVVVMBOM!

First Post in 2012. Just thankful for 2011 no matter how tough it was or whatsoever. Just thankful and grateful, and am looking forward for a great great 2012! Well, I'm not the only one having good feelings about this year, so I am really believing for that! :D

It's the 5th day of 2012 ALREADY! Gosh, if my life is gonna be like this, at this rate, I'm sure, in no time it would be the end of another year.

My statement for this year will be " Sticking with God. (My life is Yours, my world is You)"

2012 is the time of my life to grow more in the Lord.

PTL :D

GOD IS SO BEAUTIFUL IN EXPRESSING HIMSELF!

Happy birthday Jesus!

2011-12-25T21:53:00.001+08:00

I am so thankful for this day..

Indeed, it's because of this great birth that today I'm still living here.

Indeed this Xmas, it's really HOME FOR CHRISTMAS! That's basically how I spend this Christmas!:)

I was rather upset not being able to spend time with babe! Was grouchy for a good 1-2hrs! Of cos, it's a build up! Right! But I always believe that the end is always better than the beginning and yes, I'm happy, because mummy came home early! And nelson, mummy and I had our simple dinner:) TYJ !!

So yup! Don wanna sleep so soon this day, wanna watch tv!!! :)

Oh yes!
HAPPY BDAY TO YOU,
HAPPY BDAY TO YOU,
HAPPY BDAY TO JESUS,
HAPPY BDAY TO YOU:)!

I LOVE YOU SO MUCH!:)

What is it?

2011-12-17T00:32:00.001+08:00

that caused me to feel this way?
Just what is it??

Maybe I'm just too demanding especially with my close ones.. Especially him..

Today, I told myself that I want to be more independent, so that I wouldn't depend on babe, so that I won't always have the urge to meet him, to spend time with him.. But at the same time, I just want to depend on God for all things!

What a contradiction!

But ya, you know what I mean!
Seriously, I feel sad not feeling doted and loved by, but at the same time, I'm thankful for not overly pampered! I've just reasoned myself out with Aqilah and Ivan this afternoon, telling them that the only person I turn to to recharge me with "sayangs" is really him.. So maybe because of this not so right mindset of mind, when I don feel it, I often associate with him..

I'm quite sure he'll never read given that he's quite unaware that me blogging:)

Cheers to that!

Well, but all in all, I think God for all that has happened, and I only know that greater events are ahead!:)

All glory to Him!:)

Amen!

God is so beautiful!

The year is coming to an end

2011-12-16T01:39:00.001+08:00

indeed, it's the best year yet

I should be sleeping and be in my wonderland by now, but was just thinking about what I've written in my Inflection book..

I remember God telling me that this year is a year of changes in the very beginning, and to look back at all the events that have taken place, indeed, they are changes! From expo to suntec, reshuffle of cg, change of classmates, etc.. But not only these tangible things that have changed. I think my character, mindset, understanding of things are changed. I wouldn't say that it's better, neither will I say that it's for the worse. But I can only keep trusting and believing in the Molder!:)

The last few months of 2012 was definitely difficult, spiritually, emotionally, physically and mentally! But thank God that He's always faithful! And His plans are always for the best of the best!:)

Yup! Feeling a sense of joy and contentment, knowing that He'd indeed made me experience the best year yet.. Oh Lord You are so amazing...

Heart of gratitude !

Thank You Jesus:)

Revive. Inner Man.

2011-12-03T00:27:00.001+08:00

let the flame relight from within..

Had a great time at poly unite this evening..

THANK GOD!

Well, I got reminded about a few things during the meeting and I thank God for reminding me..

- I'm 18 and I have 3 more years to becoming an adult.
- Only 6 more years to be known as youth.

God uses the youths the most for the different types of ministry and I want Him to use me.. I'm not gonna despise my youth, neither would I give up on serving! :)

GOD IS SO GREAT!!:)

What Faith Can Do..

2011-12-02T12:23:00.002+08:00

Song for this period..

WHAT FAITH CAN DO
Everybody falls sometimes

Gotta find the strength to rise

From the ashes and make a new beginning

Anyone can feel the ache

You think it’s more than you can take

But you're stronger, stronger than you know

Don’t you give up now

The sun will soon be shining

You gotta face the clouds

To find the silver lining

I’ve seen dreams that move the mountains

Hope that doesn’t ever end

Even when the sky is falling

I’ve seen miracles just happen

Silent prayers get answered

Broken hearts become brand new

That’s what faith can do

It doesn’t matter what you’ve heard

Impossible is not a word

It’s just a reason for someone not to try

Everybody’s scared to death

When they decide to take that step

Out on the water

It’ll be alright

Life is so much more

Than what your eyes are seeing

You will find your way

If you keep believing

I’ve seen dreams that move the mountains

Hope that doesn’t ever end

Even when the sky is falling

I’ve seen miracles just happen

Silent prayers get answered

Broken hearts become brand new

That’s what faith can do

Overcome the odds

You don't have a chance

(That’s what faith can do)

When the world says you can’t

It’ll tell you that you can!

I’ve seen dreams that move the mountains

Hope that doesn’t ever end

Even when the sky is falling

And I’ve seen miracles just happen

Silent prayers get answered

Broken hearts become brand new

That’s what faith can do

That's what faith can do!

Even if you fall sometimes

You will have the strength to rise

This set of lyrics is wonderfully written, and I'm sure I'm not the only one who is so blessed and encouraged by this. Thank God for such music that serve a reminders.. TYJ

It is You..

2011-12-02T12:17:00.003+08:00

that I want to focus and think about..

"When you have God's love in your life, your life will glow.."

This picture just reminded me of something that's so true to me..

"When you have God's love in your life, your life will glow.." and that is exactly how you can't be the light of the world.

His perfect and great love!

Was praying just now, and I was so touched by God's faithfulness in my life! I remember praying in the beginning of the year that God will make this year 2011 the best year yet. Looking back, I can safely say that it is indeed the best year yet..

I also recognise that it is because of His love and faithfulness and greatness that have made things work together to those who believe. And I believed and is still believing..

GOD IS SO WONDERFUL!

No one else deserve more attention than He does!:)

God is so good:)

Stress level up, but there's grace.

2011-11-29T16:09:00.003+08:00

and I'm gonna persevere through this.

Im blogging from school that's because it feels like I can't really express how I feel to my current circle of friends. And I think only God understands my feelings as for now..

And I learnt that indeed the only person that would be there for you 24/7 is God and only God. Sometimes the people that are closest to you may not be THE closest to you after all. In the sense, they don actually know and phantom your thoughts.. Thus there's only One to rely on after all. TYJ!

I dislike times like this when I feel like giving up, yet pressing on!

Shall not complain!:)
God is good still:)

TODAY IS THE DAY THAT THE LORD HAS MADE!

2011-11-26T12:05:00.001+08:00

I will rejoice and be glad in it!

TP CONCERT DAY!
Finally!
I pray that it will be a great one, not just because the music played were enjoyable, but because the band members grew closer to one another! This is exciting! Duet with Jonas! Here we go! God's grace is what I'm depending on now!

On the way to school now!

Way to go!:)
GOD's GOOD!:)

Rainbow.

2011-11-25T10:13:00.001+08:00

I do want to see one now actually.

So, today is the 25th of Nov! Christmas is nearing but I could only enjoy it after going through all the projects and concerts! Way to go!

Yesterday, I was a little upset with one of my group mates. I really feel that being do tensed in a group consultation session and snatching papers and all, not the best way to make a group work effectively. Or maybe it's just a different person different ways kind of thing. Today, she didn't reply me when the other 3 did and went to class first before all of us did.. And all of a sudden she treats us so well. Well, I choose love.

Sigh.

I dunno if I regretted telling babe how I felt yesterday about liking someone else for 10mins or not. I wouldn't and didn't expect him to get over that so easily. Well, according to him, he had expected. Well well..

Yup, I sure did disappoint someone today. But on the other hand, I knew I was doing the right thing. I've repented.

Aftermath of this incident, 2 ways, either grow to love each other more, or let that 10mins kill this relationship.
I choose the first one.

:)
Guard my heart.

God is great!:)

Feelings let loose!

2011-11-25T01:57:00.001+08:00

that's why I pray that He'll help me guard my heart.

Tonight I realized how important it is to guard your heart from things that you don want!

Frankly speaking, that feeling is coming into me. Well, I guess the people who will ever read my blog would be people I trust, and so I shall pour out my thoughts and feelings here, yes at this hour.

It dawned upon me that I should remember to guard my heart and feelings and emotions because I think I could have easily like another guy now. Well this guy shall be known as anonymous! Not that I've lost my love for babe, but.. this is what I call earthly temptations..

Oh gosh, probably this may sound a little discouraging or serious, but yeah, I thank God that he reminded me about guarding my heart. I've never thought that the day that I will ever like this guy would come. What's more, I'm attached! Okay, I'm not in love with that guy, because I don't. But is just, I know it isn't fair to 'like' another guy for babe. I love babe. And I love him so much.

So on my part, I will just learn to step back and draw a more defined line across between he and I. Senior and junior. This is the greatest clue ever. Right. And I have to pray, that God will be that guardian that guards my heart.
"Lead me not into temptations but deliver me from the evil ones, I pray."

Yup, that's about it. I thank God once again for such things to help me recognise what actually going on.

TYJ.
Everyday there's a lesson to learn.

Edited a little from last night's 1am post! Hahahahah

Arise & Build

2011-11-05T23:16:00.002+08:00

#mychurchmylife

That's probably one of the major reason why A&B is so important to me.
This year, even though the amount looks pretty impossible but yet possible to fulfill, I am still gonna pledge this amount. This is a great step of Faith and I know that it's an opportunity to a) step out of my comfort zone, b) depend on God more, and c) expand my capacity (STRETCH).

So here I am.
2 promises that I am gonna stand on for the next 4 glorious and victorious months:

The Lord, my God is my provider. JEHOVAH JIREH.
Those who sow in tears will reap in joy

And I know that things may seem pretty impossible, but God is a God of possibilities. Beautiful God.

This is my church, this is where I found Christ, this is where I feel Him, this is where I have my family,

and therefore this is my life.

EXCITED!

THANK YOU JESUS!

** I WENT FOR BLOOD DONATION!
AWESOME! :D
Finally after 2 years of waiting!
I want to keep donating blood! :D

ThankYou Jesus for such opportunity.

Happy 19th birthday babe!!

2011-11-05T02:29:00.002+08:00

one year down, greater days are ahead!

" babe, I thank God for placing you into my life! Would I be where I am without you? I doubt so, your love, joy, encouragements, ups and downs, have become part of me, yes they do.
We may disagree with our different thinkings sometimes, but one thing we know for sure that is mutual to us, that is we love Christ like never before. And I know that He'd never forsake us! Amazing!

I love you much!;)"

You came..

2011-11-02T01:14:00.001+08:00

and I thank You for that 15-30min of Your precious time.

I've decided to blog after doing my assignment at this hour because I really feel like doing this.

Today, God reminded me of 2 things :

Make time for Me despite of your projects.

I was out with Hunn after school for dinner, and present hunting for his 19th birthday. And then because I took up quite a fair bit of time in school, trying to kick start on my peer teaching notes for tomorrow's commskills, he wasn't very very happy. He came down after school, just to spend time with me. Yup. I was FULLY aware.

After walking around with him, I suddenly felt that I should tell him something, and this is what I told him " Babe, I don't want to ever neglect you because of my studies and projects. I never want to.

Just then, the HS asked me this " How about God? "

At that very moment, I know, that just by saying those words to Hunn, I am also being reminded of what I SHOULD say to my Lord.
"You can give without loving, but you can't love without giving.

I was attempting to pray in the room alone before my siblings come home. Even more convicted to do that because of that encounter with him outside.

And so I started praying, I was praying for an amount, or rather a confirmation of the amount for this A&E, and I felt that the amount kept coming into my mind. I was a little afraid. Because I really don't know how would I ever attain that amount, given that I am intending to spend quite a lot for babe's 19th, and also, my tuition assignment has been suspended. I was afraid. Really.

Thus, I decided to tell God how I am feeling, like I really don't know if this is even possible or not. I've calculated, I would have to not spend $$ AT ALL for 4 months. God's grace!

God being sooooo inspriring, just said " You cannot love without giving. "
Just this 5 words. Just these words, they are enough for me to want to by all means fulfil this amount.

Now, I am only gonna do my best, and let God do the rest~

TYJ!!

I HOPE IN HIM,
and His hope doesn't disappoint... (rom 5:5)
GOD IS SO GOOD!

** on top of all these, I finally have my iPhone 4s from my siblings! TYJ for such great people in my life.

** babe was rather sweet to put my alarm for my school yesterday without telling me.
I was still very shock to hear my alarm this morning! HEH!

** babe bought a cup of warm tea when he knows that I was feeling cold.

TYJ

SEM2.2!

2011-10-28T15:38:00.000+08:00

LET THE RACE BEGIN!

I don't see myself posting here that much as for now. Well, all I can think now is that I want to grow in the Lord more more more more more and I want to encounter Him more more more more more and I want to shine for Him more in school.

Finishing the last bit of the week with a 9am lecture tomorrow morning, and hopefully I wouldn't need to give Sunday service a miss. SO JUST IN CASE, I've decided to head down for service tomorrow. YUP!

I'm actually still trying to get the hang of doing assignments all over again. So tough!

Well, God's grace.

Still trusting Him.

"I pray that God will help us overcome temptations in life.
but first, temptations must come for us to overcome.
TYJ"

:)

GOD IS GOOD!
always GOOD.

Heart of thanksgiving

2011-10-18T14:37:00.000+08:00

Once again, for the people who've been revolving around me.

First it was Jesus Christ who touched me through His wonderous stories and words in the bible.

Then my friends and love ones.
16Oct2011
On Sunday, we not only celebrated Mingli's birthday, but the cell celebrated mine too :D So touched though it should be quite expected. Just grateful and loved. That's probably the only feelings I felt till now. So so thankful. Well, they were pretty creative and smart. Can't blame, all well prepared for O's, how to not be smart? Oh well, so I went to prepare mingli's stuffs and all after cell, while they went to get my stuffs. Oh how could I not know? I really didn't know. HAHAHAH!

So we gave mingli an empty shoe box with a note inside saying that the present would be revealed later. It was wrapped with 3 layers, with 3 questions to answer. So we rewarded her! :D And finally she got her eye shadow + vitC + paopaomian + mints. AND THEN, we gave her 6 Durian Puffs as her birthday cake, and 6 candles which represent Health, Blessed, Family, Mr Right, Prosper and Pretty. All these for a greater year ahead in life! :D Quite proud of E397 though! ;D

Awesome woman of God that loves her sheeps.

And there, because she wanted durian puffs..

So this is her EMPTY card! HAHA

Then they celebrated my birthday too! I have 2 Ballballs as my "cake". Really cute of them! And also some accessories to add on to my collections! ;D So happy and thankful! :D Love card, the cake and the gifts! :) SO glad that I am part of this Spiritual Family.

My cute 'cakes'!
They are yummy!

Thoughtful and encouraging, AND PRECIOUS words.

My gifts! ;D
According to Zuowei, the hairband is very "Dorothy-ish".
So yup! LOVE THEM!

And then..

17Oct2011

Yesterday, I went to meet the flute section to watch The Wizard of Oz. Well, because the main character name is Dorothy, thus they called that my show, and we OUGHT to watch that. So we went to Mark (shifu) 's house. Jey and I went there later. Caught the show, and yes " There's no place like home. " Jey and I were looking at Shifu's baby pictures, and then when I turned back, Lixin, Huixiu, Jiaren and Shifu were standing a semicircle. Jiaren was holding a cake, with 2 lighted candles, and they started singing a birthday song for me. Actually, I kinda knew that - the reflection from the picture frames gave them away. BUT, when they started singing and celebrating my birthday, it's as if I really didn't know that was coming. And yes, I had teary eyes, because my heart melted.

What's moving is really the fact that the girls woke up early in the morning to head down to Lixin's place to bake the cake. And then, they had to clear up the place because it was in a mess. GREAT MESS, according to them. They baked the cake more than once, I believe. Given the fact that they asked me to go later. HAHAH! *touched* Jey then had to pretend that she was late and meet me first. And seriously, I believed that. I have not a single bit of suspicion that that was all planned. WELL DONE GIRLS!

So yup.. Still very touched by their great amount of love for me, even though I didn't do anything for them. Jiaren texted me something like - ...so that you would know that there is a group of people who love you so much.. While thinking and typing of this, I feel like tearing already.. Oh, Thank You Jesus. Jey said something like - oh, it's our pleasure to celebrate for you.. and Shifu said - it's a pleasure to know you.. Seriously, such encouraging words and not those that could be bought by money. TYJ!

Blowing the candle,
feeling loved and thankful..

SWEET RIGHT?!!
I don't bare to finish it!

Finally, the cake baked with 100000000000000000000000000... g of love!

18Oct2011
Tonight, I am gonna celebrate Shuyi&my birthday tog with the Twin Towers ( Sharifah&Suan). Gonna be a short, but LOVING dinner, I believe so! So excited! ;)

But in all things..
and I mean ALL things..
I give The Lord all the glory and praise.
amen&amen.

Feeling weird saying this but...

2011-10-15T01:06:00.000+08:00

I don't really want to enter next week!

I know, I know.. There are pretty much things to look forward to,
but having a week packed from Sunday to the next Sunday just right before school starts?

All will be good I pray. Amen!

Talking to babe right now makes me smile! I almost cried while telling him how dreadful I am, just by looking and thinking about the week ahead.
But God is good la, all will be fine, I believe!!

:D

4am baby!

2011-10-13T06:20:00.000+08:00

currently at Thomson Medical Centre.
Waiting patiently for the arrival of baby Ian Tan:)

Mummy woke me up at about 4ish in the morning, saying that my 二嫂's water bag broke! So now, her I am, waiting together with mummy to see the baby boy!!! Still waiting patiently for the "labour"-moment to come though. Excited! Am using my bro's iPad to post this post! Quite cool feeling actually!

Frankly speaking, I really feel like sleeping now! Oh well..

On a lighter note, 二哥 said that they are getting iPhone 4s for me as soon as it is launched , for my belated birthday present! *CLAPS!!* PTL(: so now, I do not need to consider between BB and iPhone, by default I would be an iPhone user! So grateful and thankful for such blessings!! TYJ!

Okay, enough about good news for me, now the more excited moment is the moment when baby Ian enters this earth! Really excited!

Kinda missed receiving 大姐 2 babies! Was in China when Emmanuel came out, then I was in band pract when Naomie came out. But when naomie's out, i managed to rush down, unlike when Emmanuel.. Oopsy! So, this time around, I shall make the effort to be the first few people baby Ian would see when he comes to this earth :)

Mummy is even more anxious and nervous than my bro! HAHAHS ( as always)!

Right! I shall stop here and continue waiting for that precious moment to come! I pray that it would be a smooth and successful one. praying hard that 二嫂 and Baby Ian will be safe and healthy! God's grace and mercy and peace may be on the mother and child! AMEN&AMEN!

And to add on, since this is their FIRSTBORN, like what PK preached the other time, indeed there's a social anointing over it. Way to go!!

THANK YOU JESUS FOR A NEW BORN SOUL,
a gift to all families.

GOD'S GREAT GIFT!

His Words that became the word for us.

2011-10-12T11:44:00.003+08:00

Beautifully said.

By His grace, we're one.
TYJ

" Therefore whatever God has joined together, let not man separate it. "
Mark 10:9

I thank God for the different relationships placed into my life. I have always believe that such relationships do not exist in my life by chance, but rather, it's because those are planned gifts to spice up my life, to nourish it, and to create me into who I was created for.

Family.
Friends.
Cellgroup.
Boyfriend.

" What therefore God has united (joined together),

let not man separate or divide."

(Amp)

Amazing. So therefore, I really want to treasure these people more in my life. I am blessed. And I know I am.
So that I could be a blessing to others. Amen.

Beautiful God :)
and His beautiful works.

09 October 2011,

2011-10-10T14:11:00.001+08:00

long but eventful day.
I thank You still :D

Apparently, I didn't manage to get my hairdo at Kimage. Was upset at first, but I did it at some other salon afterall. It was ultra ex. But, this shall be my own splurge for this year's birthday. *PROMISE!* Come to think about it again, I am not that excited for my birthday this year. To me, what's really nice would be, I could spend my birthday with people who've seen me grown - my family & friends. Close ones of course. To me, that's such a great bunch of people whom I'm really thanking God for.

Curls.
Dark red violet.

Yup! Don't really know how I feel about my hair, but I like the colour tho. It didn't turn out to what I wanted. But okaye, not too bad. Hopefully I will know how to maintain it! :D

*grace.grace.grace.*

And so, after service, went to have lunch with the cell - I'm totally loving it, and then went to meet babe who volunteered himself to accompany me for 3hrs ++ doing my hair, and then finally family dinner to celebrate my birthday. So thankful.

Yup, so that's about it for now.

OHHH WAIT!
Saturday's cell meeting was awesomely great! Myrna not only gave a great word to all of us, but her piano skills for worship, that was phenomenal!.. And because of the "no guitarist"- prob, I thought to myself, maybe I should just do more for this cell, by picking up guitar. I should give it try!

SO now, 3 determinations:
1. Lose weight ( Jog 3 times a week)
2. Save $$$ for building fund
3. Pick up the guitar
*God's grace*

GOD IS GREAT

When You wept...

2011-10-08T20:45:00.003+08:00

You've reminded me that...

Jesus, My Lord, You have feelings too...

And I love You so so so much!

about 2 more weeks more.

2011-10-07T12:20:00.001+08:00

To the start of sem2.2.

Babe's great sem2.2 had already started since the 04Oct. It's good and bad for me. Or rather, there're pros and cons. School starts means we've gotta text lesser. So unusual. Because half of the time spent in a day, I'm hooked onto my Sonyericson phone. But this is great too, because I am able to do more things, and spend more time in other areas of my life. And so, I still thank God for this. I know that when my school starts, it would be even tougher than now. But I am willing to go through this with Daddy God. :D Am lookinhg forward to school to start!

Yesterday, I was quite upset. I was looking forward to pick babe up from woodlands and had made a sandwich for him. Totally excited to hand that to him. But when I showed it to him, he told me he was full. Okay, shall not splurt out on my dramatic experience yesterday. So, I was to be blamed for being upset over this small matter. BUT I HAVE FEELINGS TOO! "Fragile heart." And then so I went to his house, without talking to him. I chose not to, despite him trying to pretend that everything's fine, and trying to talk to me. oh well...

Thank God, that everything was alright after that.

and it's so true that because one loves his/her partner so much, that such things cause greater hurt and scars. But these are the spices that made us stronger. Thank You Jesus.

Anyway, I have to say that I'm always so inspired by the people around me. Thank God. Really.

Hmmm, anyway, Inflection has been very benefitting to me for the past few days. I thank God for helping me read and push my limits to expand my capacity. I'm definitely not someone that loves to read. BUT I am still trying to have such a habit.

As for now, I pray for wisdom and understanding to come when I read His strong & powerful words.

GOD IS SO GOOD.

amen&amen.

2nd day of October!

2011-10-02T19:13:00.001+08:00

and quite alot had happened already.

" 'Cause I am a dreamer in Jesus' name. "

Honestly right now, I don't really know what to blog about.

Mingli is going through a tough time now. But thank God, because through this event, I know that all of us members are more united and we are all increasing in faith together. Thank God.

Pastor Kong really moved my heart when he preaches and still give us all a notebook!

God's presence in service? Made me fall in love with Him all over again. Thank God.

Just read some people's blogs, and for sure I am inspired by them and the things they are doing now. They really do inspire me to keep my hopes and dreams in God alive.

All I can think of now is that I pray hard that God will use me in different areas of my life, in CG etc. And yes, that He will be so proud to use me.

"Dreams are created to come true."
This is what I really believe in the Kingdom of God.
amen&amen.

Dr Cho's book have been a life transforming tool for me already. And that's why I'm still believing in full faith!

As for now, I am still gonna believe that October will be the greatest month yet!
AMEN!

I will keep trusting and believing.

Last day of the month.

2011-09-30T11:50:00.001+08:00

I am thanking God for..

This only means that whatever happened in this month would be left in this month. Gonna say what Babe loves to say " Let's leave our baggages at the door." Yup, have decided that Next month would be a way greater and glorious (to Him) one.

No one really know how babe and I feel about this Holiday. It was fun! Enjoyable! Great! But there are things that we'd learnt during this holiday, which I'm very sure that they did help us in this walk with God. Fleshly temptations come. Sometimes, even though they are small, we fall into them too! Of course they do leave some marks behind, but what's greater than all these is His LOVE for us. And I am more than thankful for that.

I was feeding myself with spiritual food this morning, and then was reminded about how Father God planned for Jesus Christ to die on the cross because He knew that we will fall into temptations and all. And with the cross, by His grace, through our Faith, we are purified, cleansed, and loved all over again. Such a precious moment in History. Must not take it for granted.

So yup! Thank God once again for all those GIFTS that He'd given to me. Blessed. And thank God that it's the last day of the month. Though school is starting for babe, and mine too, in a few weeks, I know that I know that next month would be a way greater chapter in life to walk in. Of course I don't really know what will happen and all, but I trust The One who loves me. Thank You HS for assuring me. I am going to depend on You MORE!

OH YES! Thoughts aside, I'VE GAINED WEIGHT!!! *noooooooooooooooooooooou*
46KG ACCORDING TO STAN'S WEIGHING MACHINE AT HOME.
I AM DETERMINED TO SHED THOSE FATS AND CALORIES AWAY!
GOD'S GRACE!

44KG, AMEN!!

Went with babe to Sentosa again yesterday, only wanting to enter the walk-in to USS. But you know, disappointments can come.. Walk-ins are only on Fri and Sat, 7pm onwards. So, 2nd time not going in. But God is good. We walked around Imbiah instead and had definitely emjoyed ourselves. Went to look for mummy for CRAB dinner at Boon Lay Way. Not too bad, but sure am thankful for this day. TYJ!

If you can see us, you see us.

Bonds.

We were attempting to look like the scene in Titanic.
SELF ENTERTAINTMENT.

Stan, Dor, Merlion.
:D

Having fun, because He was in the midst of us.

Fruit of the Holy Spirit.

2011-09-28T13:08:00.001+08:00

And I pray that these will be evident in this One life that I live.

I really wish I have a smart phone that allows me to blog at anytime and anywhere when I really feel like blogging. I mean everytime is a different time and there are so many things to blog about.

But one thing I really have to blog it up here just so that I could be reminded of, is really the fruit of the Spirt.

Fruit of the Spirit really reminds me of what are the values, characteristics, things that I ought to have the moment I have accepted Christ into my life. And this allows me to be more opened to the HS, and to depend on Him more. I really have to. and I really want to.

The Fruit of the Holy Spirit:
Love
Joy
Peace
Longsuffering
Kindness

Goodness
Faithfulness
Gentleness
Self-Control
Gal 5:22

Lord I pray..
I pray for These to be evident in this ONE life that I live.
But I need Your help.
to be Your tool for this place that I'm living in.
to be Your child that You're proud of.
amen&amen.

Thank God for this day.

2011-09-25T21:53:00.000+08:00

over the moon.

maybe, over the Milkyway...

FINALLY...

1) I met the girls. Unfortunately Suan can't come. But am thankful for a short but great catch up with Sharifah and Shuyi. It's just amazing how people grow up so quickly overtime. These are the people that see/saw all sides of me. And I love how every meet up means that we would have to laugh quite a lot. Joy.

After lunch, Shuyi and I went to bugis and I am so thankful that I did managed to NOT purchase anything. I really have to start saving for the upcoming BF. Met babe after that and then went to Church together. Once again, am so thankful that Shuyi came to join us. I really pray for an open heart. Slowly but surely. By God's grace. According to His timing. I will keep trusting.

HEY GIRLS!!
loved.

And so, I met JoelGay and Minyee after service to say hi, since I haven't seen them for quite awhile. And then, thank God once again, because, during the service, when Pastor mentioned that he would spend more time in church, I was thinking, my dreams would come through soon.. And was looking forward for the day to come where I could have the privileged to be up close and personal with Him and Sun..

Then my opportunity came. Thank God I went to look for Minyee. Managed to take quite a number of pictures with HIM! FINALLY, AFTER 6 YEARS!!!!!

TYJ!

So,

2) I took picture with Pastor Kong!!!!!!

I think only Shuyi and Babe were the ones who saw my reactions throughout that whole moment. GOODNESS! I was in shock when I stood before pastor. His presence already made me feel loved. Fatherly love, and warmth. I wanted to hug him sooooo badly. That's how much I look up to him. Strong, couragous, yet loving pastor. Thank God for Him and Sun.

2 Favourite Men :)
blessed.

My all time look upon man,
PASTOR KONGHEE!
honoured.

And finally, some happy moments afterwards.

People I call "Friends".
thankful.

All in all, I thank God for everything.
ILYJ!

SURPRISE!

2011-09-23T22:59:00.000+08:00

HUNN!
happy 13th chapter!(:
hehehehehehehe! thank you for your love and your steadfastness!
you have been a great great great blessing to me and I LOVE YOU LOADS
really looking forward greater glory months ahead!

LOVE,
Stan(:

Just a little bit of love.

2011-09-23T17:54:00.001+08:00

Current results is NOT equals to future results.

HONEY!! I'm still happy for you for the results that you've attained. I'm so amazed by how the Lord answers your prayers in getting some As here and there. I thank God that you are praising Him no matter what. And I am believing together with you for greater 3 more sems ahead. He is taking you Higher. You keep trusting, keep believing, and keep running this race. RP may disappoint you, but DADDY God will never do that. He will make your crooked path striaght. I KNOW YOU WILL DO SO WELL NEXT SEM, and the ones after that.

Let us keep on keeing on TOGETHER.
I remembered, we do things together! :)

Came home to post this for you.
Off I go for band! :)
with vast amount of love,
Hunn.

CHAPTER 13!

2011-09-22T12:06:00.000+08:00

Already, and I really thank God for ALL that had happened thus far.

How time flies.
I realise I always say the same thing. But well, it's the truth. Oh well. Holidays are ending for babe. Gonna want to spend ultra loads of time with him before my school starts too, which definitely means I would have to face the com to type out more reports and essays, and also to face more tutorial hw then. Can't wait for school to start. Not. Maybe alittle. Alright. I shall stop contradicting with myself.

ANYWAY, ANYHOW..

The thirteenth month with Hunn was pretty much great. So vague. But yeah. Things happen and at the end of the day, it just falls back to who, and where we run to - God. Babe says that we are closer after things happen. I would totally agree to that. And once again, I thank God for it.And I thank Babe for it. :)

This is my FIRST time being in a r/s for this "long". And I believe that there are even greater and more eventful years ahead, So long as we keep having the FAITH that we have in God throughout this journey. God is definitely good to us.

So yup. On this day, we went to Sentosa. Hoping to sun tan, but it was raining in the morning, and then drizzles and then cloudy. We prayed for the sun, it didn't come out. But you know what is the amazing thing? Babe and I became tanner somehow. Oh how great is our God. REALLY. This thought me to trust in Him EVEN more. And that His plans are ALWAYS right in our lives. TYJ.

Had A LOT of fun with Honey, munching on chips, drinking greentea, having Ice cream, and then a LOVE-FILLED dinner before heading home.

" You can sacrifice without love, but you can't love without sacrificing. "

Beautiful.

My little scroll for someone great!

His awesome and nicely made card for me:)
*touched*

@siloso beach on a wet but love-filled day.

"Whale and Dolphin!"
WAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHHA

There are definitely waves that we would
have to overcome eventually..

*blush!*

Babe's art!

USS!
didn't manage to walk in it AGAIN!
it's ok. NEXT WEEK! haha!

One thing : I thank God for this GIFT.

The KL getaway

2011-09-19T14:10:00.002+08:00

Brought us closer. I was so certain that this journey had brought us to a whole new level.

First day : We headed to Genting Highland and it was raining. By the time we had arrived to the hotel, it was about dinner time. So we headed to the Mushroom farm for Zhi Char. Uncle and aunty really treated me well throughout the journey. Babe and I agreed that an ice had melted. Thank God. After dinner, we went to start on our mini shopping trip. Quite an experience to be able to have Fishspa! Ticklish at first, but then not anymore.

In the hotel room, I had a hard time falling asleep. Totally not a fan of sleeping in ultra dark and quiet rooms. I guess I'm too used to sleeping in a room with a bit of lights and prob sounds of the nature. Had nightmares too! Can't remember what I dreamt about. But, thank God we were there only for a night. :)

Genting Highland :)

Love this picture. SO CUTE! :)

on our way up, in a cable car.

in our hotel room, with our starbucks.

Second Day: Woke up early in the morning for breakfast in the Hotel. Then we headed to the bus terminal to hop on to a coach for a LONG LONG and CRAZY ride down to KL. Goodness, babe would definitely agree that the ride was so tough for us. What's more, we're sitting right at the back of the bus, which made the bumpy journey more impactful! Felt like vomitting with giddy spells. That's how we felt that afternoon. Babe even broke out in cold sweats. But thank God, we still manage to have a short break in the Hotel before setting out for late lunch and some shoppings.

Overall, it was quite an experience. There was jams and all. Didn't buy anything much that day, except for some pastries and cookies for home. Managed to witness some fireworks display from our hotel room :) Beautiful.

Not forgetting walking down the streets, and stopping by at the Tau Huay stall to have a bowl of that! SUPER NICE! :)

Bus ride. LONG ONE!

I thought babe looks good with his hair like this :)

Fireworks in collaboration with the National Day celebration in M'sia.
Oh, and THE TWIN TOWER!

Strangely, i like this picture like this more than in landscape!
SO yup, us and the twin towers.

Third Day: We went shopping!! Had breakfast in the Hotel, probably 10times better than the previous one. Then we went walking around, and I love how the things at Chinatown are so cheap. OH, and not forgetting how there is power in bargaining! :B Love it much! Probably the third day is the most relaxing one.

Breakfast! ENJOYED IT!

(Editted) Classic train ride.

Oh babe, I love you much.

Fourth Day: WE DIDN'T DO ANYTHING MUCH! Went for breakfast, and then to chinatown again. And we saw an aunty selling muah chees. It's not just the ordinary ones, but there were other flavours too! Like Sesame la, bandung la.. etc. YUMMY! and it tastes different from the ones in singapore!

So we packed our stuffs after that, then headed to the airport. I ADMIT, I was dead tired, that I fell asleep in the taxi! Then we had lunch at Secret Recipe in KL Airport. And then FLEW HOMEEEE!

MuahChee with many flavours!
*Thumbs up!*

BABYYYYYYYY!!

While waiting to board the plane...

What a trip to remember, for SOOOO many reasons.

I've learnt so so so much. I think only hunn and God would understand what I mean. I mean, I don't really know how to put them in words. So yup.

Not forgetting the obvious that I've put on some weight, given the fact that I had at least twice the portion for every meal, as compared to usual. Praying hard that I will slim down in Singapore again! :)

All in all, I am so thankful and grateful for this opportunity.

I thank God for His divine protection over all of us, and for His love, peace, and mercy to be so evident here.

Thank you uncle and aunty for this trip. Though I know you will never ever see this, but just so you know, I am really grateful for all the care and concern and provision. Babe, I thank you for taking care of me through all the four amazing days. Things may happen but ultimately, we overcome them together. And I love you! All in all, I thank You Jesus for being the One who makes ALL things possible.
I count myself Blessed.

Yours truly,

Dorothy (:

fly fly fly , a butterfly...

2011-09-14T10:42:00.000+08:00

Finally taking a plane (short ride though), to KL with Babe and his parents.
SO blessed that his mum offered to pay for my tix and all. Blessed. Really.

I thank God for this opportunity to go to KL! First and foremost, it's because I have never been there before! I KNOW I KNOW, it's just beside singapore. Everyone will have their first times right? It's a sooner or later thing I guess :D OH WELL, the fact of the matter is that I don't travel much on my own, with friends or even with my HUGE family. SO YUP! Hope that explains!

Anyway, anyhow.. I'm still excited to go !

I thank God diarrhoea attacked me on Saturday - Sunday. And menstrual cramps on Friday.. NOT TODAY! :D Thank God for healing! It was a tough fight, still having a little side effects such as headaches and all, BUT I'm all set to go to a foreign land to experience life somewhere near home,but not home. YUP!

OKAY!!!
I shall get ready to wait for babe and his parents to come in a cab! :D

I pray that God & HS will be with us :D
For that matters most, be it in protecting us, or being in a fellowship.

TILL THEN! :D

Good things are worth waiting for.

2011-09-09T13:30:00.000+08:00

For example, His presence.

Okay, I have been procrastinating to even blog something up. I mean, I know this is for my own reference and also so that I would remember things better. And there won't be anyone to say "hey, your blog no update ah?" etc, which is good. And this is probably some reasons why I kept procrastinating. HAHA!

Long post starts now :

MONDAY 06 Sept 2011

It was JBF. Seeing my brother conducting on stage made me thank God so much. Thank God that He had brought LYSB thus far, and for bring Nelson till where he is this day. Indeed, You can make a nobody to a somebody. And that fact itself is a great motivation to help me keep moving.

Decided to walk and have some soul time alone. Just a sudden urge to walk down the street in the night, with strong breeze, feeling so relaxed. Like there's nothing to rush for, there's nothing in mind. Honestly, I wasn't thinking about anything. Nothing at all. Just enjoying the "light" feeling. Content.

But throughout the night, I can't help but to feel so humbled before the Lord. 'Cause, to think about it, I really don't deserve to be a band major back then. I don't hav those qualities. Those desired qualities. So, really, who am I that He is so mindful of me? TYJ!

I can't help it but to thank God for all that He'd blessed me since day 0! :D

TUESDAY 07 Sept 2011

One thing I've learnt:

if there's no "Peace of God" in the decision that you've made, then it's not a "God decision" .

I thank God that after 2-3days of waiting for Him to show me an answer, He taught me some facts of Himself.

I thank God I've decided to go for POLY UNITE.

WEDNESDAY 08 Sept 2011

"Our Moment" together. I thank God for.

Went for POLY UNITE. And it was amazing! The whole revival thingy just reminds me so much of those secondary school days, where I am always very burdened by. The ability to keep on asking and praying and believing for a breakthrough in LYSS was still available then... When I stepped into TP a year ago, I feel otherwise. No excitement. No burden. Just want to simply be a student for Christ and graduate at the end of the third year. Once or twice, there was this 5min enthusiasm. Then, back to square one.

But that night, after that great meeting by PastorMengChin, I am SO SO SO SO convicted to not just spend the last few laps of my YOUTH in vain... I remember how the other time, I was reminded of how many years left to adulthood. And had that sudden conviction to do as much as I could for His kingdom. This year, I am 18year old. 3 more years to 21.. I know that I know, I can't afford to waste anytime now. NOT NOW.

And I thank God for giving me that burden once again.

THURSDAY 09 Sept 2011

ROUND 2 with PastorMengChin!

YOU-nique meeting! :D

MY GOODNESS! At first, I was soooooo tempted to just give it a miss. BUT I THANK GOD I DIDN'T! OH my, that encounter with the Holy Spirit was phenomenal. My goodness. So blessed. So touched. So loved. I don't really know how to type my exact feelings in words. But really, I miss that feeling, and I'm glad that I had the privileged to experience it once again.

I left B4 Auditorium with a happy heart.

" The Joy of the Lord is my Strength. "

Went to look for babe immediately after that, say about 1030pm? I know that we have to do one thing, and that is to repent and seek forgiveness, and hence to consecrate our lives once again so that we will be able to be focused on Him, and so that He can guide us to what we were placed together for , in the beginning.

ALL IN ALL,

this is how this adventure is.

and it's so amazing because I have an amazing author.

amen&amen

Nothing much.

2011-09-06T00:32:00.000+08:00

I LOVE YOU BABY! :D

so random, but ya.

for all your worries, your joy, your sacrifices and yourself.

love, your beloved!

The greatest of all is Love.

2011-09-03T11:15:00.007+08:00

1 Corinthians 13

The Way of Love

¹ If I speak with human eloquence and angelic ecstasy but don't love, I'm nothing but the creaking of a rusty gate. ²If I speak God's Word with power, revealing all his mysteries and making everything plain as day, and if I have faith that says to a mountain, "Jump," and it jumps, but I don't love, I'm nothing. ^3-7If I give everything I own to the poor and even go to the stake to be burned as a martyr, but I don't love, I've gotten nowhere. So, no matter what I say, what I believe, and what I do, I'm bankrupt without love.

Love never gives up.
   Love cares more for others than for self.
   Love doesn't want what it doesn't have.
   Love doesn't strut,
   Doesn't have a swelled head,
   Doesn't force itself on others,
   Isn't always "me first,"
   Doesn't fly off the handle,
   Doesn't keep score of the sins of others,
   Doesn't revel when others grovel,
   Takes pleasure in the flowering of truth,
   Puts up with anything,
   Trusts God always,
   Always looks for the best,
   Never looks back,
   But keeps going to the end.

^8-10Love never dies. Inspired speech will be over some day; praying in tongues will end; understanding will reach its limit. We know only a portion of the truth, and what we say about God is always incomplete. But when the Complete arrives, our incompletes will be canceled.

¹¹When I was an infant at my mother's breast, I gurgled and cooed like any infant. When I grew up, I left those infant ways for good.

¹²We don't yet see things clearly. We're squinting in a fog, peering through a mist. But it won't be long before the weather clears and the sun shines bright! We'll see it all then, see it all as clearly as God sees us, knowing him directly just as he knows us!

¹³But for right now, until that completeness, we have three things to do to lead us toward that consummation: Trust steadily in God, hope unswervingly, love extravagantly. And the best of the three is love.

I was just reading this chapter last night. And then I've decided that I want to have such a love for God, for Babe, and for the people around me. It's definitely not gonna be an easy task, that I am aware. But really, no harm trying! I told babe, that if this is what His Word says about Love, then I want to be the follower and the learner. This Book is my instruction book. It is my GPS. It is my guide. But then again, I really need the HS and The One above to help me through this.

YUP, CONVICTED.

and I thought : If I have everything and without love, I am nothing.

( and if Christ is love, and I am without love, means I am without Christ. And that define me as nothing.)

Thank God for Christ.

Finally managed to read one of the blogs that I love reading (YOU KNOW WHO YOU ARE! if you ever see this! HAHA), and then she was talking about love too! How true can it be that love is a topic that will never fade. Because love is what we human beings have in common. It is what we live on. Just like air. Love is so beautiful.

and the most amazing thing is that

CHRIST IS LOVE.

TYJ!

Teachers are wonderful...

2011-09-02T23:14:00.000+08:00

beyond their nags, scoldings, and shoutings.

anyone that had taught me something,
is one I call "teachera" in this path.
but only He,
showed the light.

TEACHER'S DAY!!
This is the first year I've not been back to both LYSS and LPS to wish my teachers. But was just thinking, actually there are so much that they'd done for me to make me who I am this day. I mean, there are so many teachers, from band, schools and all, that have impacted me in a way or another. Be it in the area of studies or about life. Whether or not they realised they've done so much, they'd really been such a great contributer in my life. And I thank God for them. In such things that I feel like I'm super blessed.

Was just texting some of those teachers that had impacted me in a way or another, and then, I was reminded that not all teachers by name are teachers.To me, so long as one had taught me something, could be anything, he/she is my teacher. Not by name, but by action. "Action speaks louder than words." So true. And so, I sms-ed Mingli, Babe, Mark (my sl) too! These are the people that I remembered then. There are definitely much more! I KNOW. But I guess, these are the people that have taught me different things along the way... Once again, I count myself blessed, all because of the One above.

How could I not remember, the greatest teacher of all, JESUS CHRIST! Thank You, for being the light that guides my path even before I've known You. I love You so so much! You're the best! HAPPY TEACHER'S DAY! :D

HEARTFELT THANKS TO PRACTICALLY EVERYONE IN MY LIFE.
most of all, THE CREATOR OF ALL, AND JESUS CHRIST!
grateful.
TYJ!

IT IS FINISHED!

2011-08-30T13:27:00.001+08:00

25.5hours ago to be exact!

So thankful for His strength, wisdom, peace and comfort in those times when I feel like not studying or I don't feel like I'm gonna do well.

Thankful.

Am gonna continue to trust for the best out of The Best of the universe.
Yes I am!
I've committed my papers into His hands. and I've done my best ( I think?!) HAHA! Now all I have to do is to let Him do the rest!

HR paper was on Friday. Amazingly, I was 10min late after the paper starts. This means I've lost another 10min reading time, which could actually help me a whole lot. The route of bus 15 to school, due to a construction work in progress, there was a jam. Thankful I met Terry in the bus who suggested that we should alight and walk down to another bus stop to take another bus. All in all, it really reminds me that God is still good no matter what! Thankful that I managed to finish the paper 10min before submission! GOD'S GRACE!

Business Finance paper yesterday. Was not as confident as my other tests for this module. Had a little panic attack while doing the paper, but once again, thankful for His calm and control, that helped me see things clearer. Managed to finish the paper. Then again, GOD'S GRACE!

And the highlight of yesterday's that it's the END of BABE and MY EXAMS!!:D
So we went to catch Zookeeper together! Hilarious show. Good type of movie to catch after burrying ourselves with notes, exercises and tutorials for days.

Today's Hari Raya, and I can't seem to find anything to do. Like a sudden emptiness plus, babe's going out with his cell. Hopefully I can meet him and mummy for dinner tonight! Have been playing tetris after having a bowl of dumpling soup for breakfast! Now, I'm feeling tired ALL OVER AGAIN! No good at all.

Anyway, these few weeks, I've been thinking about how important the Word of God is, and yes, I'm defnitely am convicted of reading the word. And to know more beyond those verses and words. They definitely have in depth meanings! I'm so so so sure. And it would be nice to be able to know such revelations, and hence seeing your whole life transformed. *dreams*

Dr A.R.Bernard's service was phenomenal. Nothing special. Because his services are ALWAYS so good! It definitely made me learnt a whole lot of things just within an hour or so. So grateful for people like him. It's because of God-given people like him, that changed my life.

Don't really know what to blog now, but till then.

GOD IS ALWAYS GOOD EVEN IF YOUR SITUATION IS BAD!
TYJ

IT'S THE TIME OF THE YEAR!

2011-08-26T11:05:00.001+08:00

E.X.A.M.I.N.A.T.I.O.N.S

This pretty much descrbe how my notes are.
Just that this is neater(:

This is the time of the academic year again, to stand strong in Faith, and rely much on Him for wisdom, peace and comfort! Oh well, seriously speaking, this time round, I don't feel ultra anxious. Probably this is for now. Today's gonna be my first paper. HRM!!!! Interesting module to take. BUT, hardcore memorizing. And that is why I really have to depend on God to help me through this period.

Well, I shouldn't be spending much time here online.

I was just reminded about how this past one year have been with babe. And it is so so so true that I, or rather we, can't do it without Him. I mean, He's the One who didn't give up on us when either one of us felt like. And I believe that this is one main thing that He'd done exceptionally well, to bring us to where we are till date. So thankful. Of course not forgetting those times when I feel like I'm at my darkest moment, it is He who was present.

Everytime I sing the first verse of Be With You by 3PM, I can't help but to think about all those moments that He'd indeed been my comforter, my listener, my peace. Really so grateful.

"Saviour of my soul,
I confide in You through all my darkest moments.
In You I find my peace,
My comfort when I'm weak,
I trust in You, through storms and raging seas."

Such feelings can't be fully expressed out in words. But nonetheless, I'm grateful for all.

Was just thinking, frankly speaking, there's no one else, but Christ, who is able to be there 24/7 for you. To me, even my boyfriend can't be like that, neither could my best friends. But, the fact of the matter is that we are all human beings that have our own schedule to follow, our own checklist to complete. That is life. So we couldn't practically be there 24/7 of our life with anyone! But God. The "God-Factor". He is for us.
"I know that You are for me.."
And yes, He is.

P.S. To me, I'm more than blessed to have such great "sisters" since sec school, and awesome bestfriends till date. Not forgetting my beloved babe! ALL have been precious gifts since day one. Really can't do it without you all!

OFF I GO,
to revise once through,
and then to conquer that 2hours paper!

" Commit your works to the Lord,
and your thoughts WILL BE ESTABLISHED."

Prov 16:3

Yup, committed, still committing.
believing and trusting!
TYJ!

#365 day

2011-08-23T11:30:00.002+08:00

HAPPY ANNIVERSARY BABE!
What I want to say have been said.
There's nothing more than just to thank you, and thank God for everything that we've been through.
I thank you for everything that you've been to me since day one.
I thank you for not giving up when you feel like giving up.
I thank you for your forgiveness and generousity.
And most importantly, I thank you for your love for God, for the your friends, for your family, and lastly, for me.
With all these, I am more than content.'

I'm sorry for everything that I've done wrong,
and did not do when I should.
I'm still learning.

I want to be someone you don't regret being with.
I want to love you.

all in all, when all is said and done,
One year's down.
Many more adventurous moments with you Babe.

Love you much!

So, this is what we did on the 22nd Aug 2011 :

babe had his first UT
met at dg macs

presentation of gifts! (WAHAHA)

went to get babe's Earl Grey MT with Herbal Jelly
head down to Cathay for dinner at Astons

babe's first time there!

took picture with smurf
went to fort canning park
then to Marina Square Starbucks

mochas
our birthday cake
look at some cute pictures of babe!

home sweet home

Black Pepper Steak.

Garlic Breads.

Mushroom Soup.

Hickory BBQ Chicken.

Our Birthday Cake! :D

Our First Birthday! :D
22 - Aug - 2011

Our gifts for each other.

Me - Him : Albulm for the year.
Him - Me : An awesomely cute and pretty card.

Thank You Jesus

2011-08-18T23:29:00.001+08:00

because you love me

Thank God for today's great time with Honey.
really.

I thank God that today is a day that had already covered all the emotions aroused last night. Indeed, when you lift it up to Him, He will show up.

and I believe in that.

and to my darling, thank you for making the effort to please me. Seriously, your sillyness makes me love you even more. I really love you so much silly! *hugs*

More than that,
THANK YOU JESUS!

This event reminds me of what Pastor Kong tweet about how when it's the tail end of wits, then God will enter. Enter big. Huge. And awesomely.

God is so beautiful.

My Apology.

2011-08-18T11:03:00.000+08:00

Dearest love,

I didn't want to even let you know that I was that upset with us.

But I did anyway.
You eventually saw my unseen side.

I don't know if you would see whatever I am about to write now or not,
but, I am so so sorry for my harshness in words.
One thing I do hope is that this wouldn't affect you much.

I will not remove that post.
Because I know that's part of what I was feeling in this journey with you.
I wouldn't want to lie, neither do I want to pretend that I'm perfectly fine with us.

Anyway, anyhow, baby, I am so so sorry.
I told you before, it's definitely because I know you loved me and I too, love you..
that's why when things don't turn out right, it just upsets me quite a fair bit.

My flesh says : Give up!
My spirit says : Keep swimming!
and I know my God would say : Keep trusting me!

So, I'm not anywhere near giving up on this.

Just so you know, I really really really love you k!
I do.
Even in times like this.

Yours sincerely,
beloved.

Mixed.

2011-08-18T00:07:00.001+08:00

When you don't know how you are feeling,
let nature express it out for you.

Sudden urge to blog up something. I don't really know exactly how/what I am feeling now. But it feels rather familiar. Like I've felt it before, somewhere, some time.. I am not exactly upset, neither am I extremely happy. Just, indifferent I guess?

You are so right when you say we certainly missed out the importance of spending quality time together. But it didn't perk up that excitement or contentment in me. I want it. I long for those moments that we used to have. But, it pretty much starts dying off eventually. What a weird woman I am.

Frankly speaking, I wish I wouldn't have to meet you anytime soon. Not that I've lost that feeling of us being us. But it's just, I'm dead tired of feeling so insensitive, not understanding, upset at times, and just unexplainable, everytime we meet. And then you would suddenly talk like everything is ok already, since it's the past. I really appreaciate that a lot. It definitely helped a whole lot in mending things. Easy for you, baby. Not for me.

Today made me feel worst.

And what kept me thinking is that it's no longer "You-factor" that pleases me the most.
I found joy and contentment instantly, just by a simple glance at the moon - His creation.
Really thank God for that.

If you would to ever read this, I believe you would feel bad etc.
Don't be. 'Cause I'm still learning not to be this way.
It's never your fault, you see..
I have to stop being demanding, and learn to stop wanting others to do the "Dor's way".

5more days to the day.
Don't really know what to expect. Cos here I am so darn freaking excited... oh well, I must understand that you have you "sian" moments too - your UT's on that day!

nonetheless,
i love you still.

i'm sorry for everything.

Tetris

2011-08-17T11:31:00.001+08:00

Recently I kinda got hooked up with this FB game.

I know, I know, this is such a weird topic to blog about, but true, tetris indeed made me realised some thing.
While playing that game, you know how addictive it could be, but nonetheless, I realised that it's really important to set the foundations right. Rather, OUR foundations right.

Be it in life, the things we do, or with The One above.
Foundation.
So imporatant.
" and I want to set mine on the Solid Rock of Salvation. "

You know, when your base is not completely covered, like there are loopholes here and there, it probably seem like there's no chance of winning this challenge. Your blocks are getting higher, and soon, it'll reach the top and you'll lose the game.

But you know what's the beautiful part of this game, to me, it just requires perserverance and trust in Him. EVEN IN A GAME, I KNOWWWWW~ But it's true. Eventually, you would be able to form lines after lines. One line at a time, but the tower of blocks would shrink!

And you know what, He's that filler.
We may not have a strong foundation in the beginning, but that doesn't neccessarily mean that there's no chance in creating a chance.
I believe in one thing, and that is, when there is a "God-Factor" in your life, you are always at the winning end, even if things don't seem like it.

GOD IS BEAUTIFUL,
He is the one we identify as AWESOME.

(:

THE 22ND BIRTHDAY OF CHC!

2011-08-15T22:59:00.000+08:00

Where I belong, where dreams do come true,
where I found love, where I want to be..

Yup, this is my spiritual family. E397!
I love.

I'm so thankful that I'm part of this great church, under the care of wonderful people, and MAN & WOMAN. In my opinion, the people closest to Christ.

So blessed to have known Pastor Kong and Sun.
To be under them.
I am truly blessed.
TYJ for these past 6years.
(:

Always enjoying
always growing.
in You.

Predestined

2011-08-11T09:57:00.002+08:00

To be like Him..

For those whom He foreknew [of whom He was aware and loved beforehand], He also destined from the beginning [foreordaining them] to be molded into the image of His Son [and share inwardly His likeness], that He might become the firstborn among many brethren." Romans 8:29(Amp)

Isn't this just so amazing? Knowing that from the very beginning, God wants us to be conformed into His Son's image. This shows how a master piece Christ is. How a master piece we are, that we are predestined to be like Him. God is so so good.

Predestine: to destine in advance; foreordain; predetermine
Destine: to appoint or ordain beforehand, as by divine decree;foreordain; predetermine

We, His children have been appointed, ordained, purposed to be conform into Christ's image. Well, at the end of the day, it's how you live your life that determines whether the purpose is fulfilled. And God, Help Me To Live In That Purpose.

Pst John Bevere said something that kept me thinking. He said " You will not be judged on what you have done, but rather what you have not done to fulfil the purpose of God."

So yup. Convicted.
I want to live a life like Jesus. Whether trials, or peace, I want to be like Him as much as possible.

"Moreover whom He predestined, these He also called; whom He called, these He also justified; and whom He justified, these He also glorified" Romans 8:30(NKJV)

And this is what the bible say next.
Predestined, called, justified, glorified.
Predestined: purposed
Called: He called us.
Justified: Molded to be like Him, probably through trials.
Glorified: At the end of the day, be glorified with our Saviour.
All things with Him.

Is this what I have been living by?

GOD IS AMAZING!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY SINGAPORE!

2011-08-09T18:47:00.002+08:00

Haven't been really actively blogging these days.
But it's okay, because this is not a known blog, do not need to feed the readers! HAHAH!

Come to think about it, there are so much I want to splash out here.
Thoughts, feelings, revelations...
Oh well. Until I have the leisure to do them, I shall just keep this blog alive by posting short posts.

Am currently at Suntec's STARBUCKS waiting for my beloved to be done with his muso pract!

It's National Day, and seriously, it doesn't really feel like it! No atmosphere, maybe it's just a poly kid thing, or is it just me?

HAPPY BIRTHDAY SINGAPORE!
Proud to be living here!
AWESOME!

BABE is in front of me now!
Speaking about honey, sometimes, it just feel different.. Like so unlike the past! And sometimes, i just wished I could relive the past moments. Not that I'm not enjoying the current situation, but it's not the best of the best! HAHA. But nonetheless, I'm still loving this boy of mine like never before.

I LOVE HONEY!
MUCH!

(:

2011-07-27T10:06:00.001+08:00

Nothing much to rant about for now.

I love the people here.

Shuyi : My beloved sister and friend.

Jon : I've always think that he is a nice guy, which he is.

Zam : Hilarious, but awesomely nice.

the rest : don't really know them yet, but for all I know, they make me feel loved.

that's how important friends are to me.

Salt

2011-07-26T11:20:00.000+08:00

Salt is good.

“You are the salt of the earth; but if the salt loses its flavor, how shall it be seasoned? It is then good for nothing but to be thrown out and trampled underfoot by men." Matt 5: 13

The thought of being the salt and light here came into my mind. And then I started thinking of what are the benefits of salts, or rather, the uses of them. I could only think of a few though. Probably the standard few? Example,
1. flavouring in food
2. preserving them
3. healing the wounds
and that's all I could think of.
The amazing thing is that these are the things that we ought to be. We should have such benefits to where we are today. Bringing in flavour and joy and colours into people life, helping them, protecting them from the evil ones, getting them to know our saviour, and healing the wounded hearts. This alone kept me thinking on my individual life. Am I all carrying these characteristics?

I went to search online on the uses of salts.

http://www.lowsalt.info/serv03.htm

And another thing that salt does is cleaning the dirts. Though only the Son of Man can wash us clean, we ought to be the tools that He uses to help clear the mess in others' lives. Talking about all these factors just reminded me of Christ. Of who He is to this world, or rather, to us, His disciples.

He'd added and is still adding flavours into my life.
He'd preserved and is still preserving me from the evil ones.
He'd healed and is still healing me physically, spiritually and mentally.
He'd cleansed and is still cleansing me.

And because we are His disciples, we ought to have the authority to be like Him. God breathe breath into our lives. He called us to be the Salt and the Light. Just like how His begotten Son is to us. He called us. He CALLED us. Many are called, but few are chosen. Those who are chosen are those who are willing to take up the challenge. And Lord, I want to be chosen.
Help me I pray, to be like You in this society I'm living in...
I want to live a life with purpose..
meaningful life.

GOD IS SO AMAZING!
(:

13min to go

2011-07-25T18:28:00.000+08:00

for band practice.

What a day to begin with. Broke fast like 30min earlier just so that I won't feel that bloated for band practice and hopefully able to play my flute well. By God's grace.

Last night was a terror. Nah, terror is such an overstatement of that shock. Hunn and I had a mini quarrel. (does that even count a quarrel?) But anyway, I must admit that it was my fault. "Sorry babe!" It was such a silly of me to not include him in the conversation between my junior and I. And so... for approximately 15min, he was all alone.
Seriously speaking, I'm really disappointed with myself.
but, on a lighter note, I'm fine now. Thank God.

And so, today, it's the start of a new and greater week. Submissions are near. So, so near. This means that presentations and exams are equally near. By Faith I will overcome.

Today, after Access mock test I feel much better about doing this project. Sudden determination to complete this!! PRAISE THE LORD!

Talking to babe now:)
I WANT TO RUN TONIGHT!!!!!

off i go!
BAND TIMEEEEE!!!

HAPPY CHAPTER 11!

2011-07-22T09:06:00.000+08:00

"so I'll keep walking.
I'll follow the track, though it's bumpy...
'cause I know I'm not alone.."

So, it's the time of the month again! Not that time of the month, but the time of the month. HAH!

Baby, thank you so much every single thing for the past 11 faithful months.

You are THE man of my life.

With every cuddle, with every kiss, my heart melts like an ice - water.

Thank you for the unseen, but felt strength every single time I feel like giving up.

I really really love you! MUCHHHH!!

But in all these, I thank God.

I thank God that He's always here with us.

This is my prayer today, that He'll expand our capacity so that we can do more of His works.

Finally, HAPPY CHAPTER 11 BABE! :)

*HUGS*

Long weekend.

2011-07-18T10:04:00.000+08:00

but great one.
though works undone.

"we have joy, we have fun,
we have seasons in the sun.."

This weekend had been a long but great one as mentioned. Saturday I finally got to spend time with beloved, and then went for emerge instead of going home to do my work. But, I must say I didn't regret a single part of my actions. In fact, I'm so thankful I went. One major reason is also because of the people present there. I am so so so so blessed. Hunn's cell members and friends were just fantastic! Wonderful people.

And then it was Sunday, emerge again! Moved by the various testimonies and also the drama... His presence was so tangible. Service suddenly felt so short. Fellowship-ed, and then went to celebrate YG's birthday! *SUCCESS!* Flew to the east, to attend my uncle's funeral wake. I must confess, I was dead tired! Stayed till 11ish, and home...

So, that's about it for my weekend.

One thing I must thank God for is really for His love in my family. Despite the tough moments mummy went through, she finally agreed to forgive them. See, I really believe that events such as this really are blessings in disguise. God does wonders, especially in ways you've never expected it to be. How touching to know that mummy actually apologised and comforted my Aunt. How nice to recieve a call from mummy, being asked to attend the wake. How beautiful to experience some moments with my aunts, uncles, and cousins...
God is doing something.
Indeed, the pasts, are really the pasts. "remove those bridges to the pasts," Mingli preached. It's so important to do so. And once again, there's great power in forgiveness.

All in all, I was greatly reminded about "desperation for God"...
And that shall be what I want to attain! (:

ONE HECTIC THURS TO CONQUER THIS WEEK!
really by God's grace..

Take me deeper.

2011-07-16T09:01:00.000+08:00

Deeper in love with You.

The Value of Wisdom
¹ My son, if you receive my words,
      And treasure my commands within you,
       ² So that you incline your ear to wisdom,
      And apply your heart to understanding;
       ³ Yes, if you cry out for discernment,
      And lift up your voice for understanding,
       ⁴ If you seek her as silver,
      And search for her as for hidden treasures;
       ⁵ Then you will understand the fear of the LORD,
      And find the knowledge of God.
       ⁶ For the LORD gives wisdom;
      From His mouth come knowledge and understanding;
       ⁷ He stores up sound wisdom for the upright;
      He is a shield to those who walk uprightly;
       ⁸ He guards the paths of justice,
      And preserves the way of His saints.
       ⁹ Then you will understand righteousness and justice,
      Equity and every good path.

Everything comes, when you desperately ask Him for them. I believe that is how our Lord is. We too, are sometimes like this. Until someone shows you that she/he is really desperate for something, then you are willing to give it to them. I was praying for a breakthrough in my spiritual life. Then, I just asked God randomly for a word. As the bus driver sped through the journey, my heart raced together with it. I began to feel the itch, and the great want for that word. So I prayed in my heart. And then this came. I read, but the part about how we should cry out and lift up our voices moved me. These words strucked me. Goodness! The truth is that I really want to be like that too. I want to know who my God is. Literally. Don't want to just know Him as how everyone knows Him to be like, but rather, know Him, like a special friend, like someone so so so close to me. God is so amazing.

During cell group meeting this week, though many weren't there, it was phenomenal. Well, at least for me! His presence and peace and love was definitely tangible there. And so, we sang this really old song, "Deeper in Love" - Don Moen. It moved my heart, and I believe that it move His too. The lyrics are all so heartfelt, words that describe what's in our hearts. This is a beautiful song.

Deeper in Love
There is a longing , only You can fill
A raging tempest, only You can still
My soul is thirsty Lord to know You as I'm known
Drink from the river, that flows before your throne

Take me deeper,
deeper in love with You
Jesus hold me close in Your embrace
Take me deeper,
deeper that I've ever been before
I just want to love You more and more
how I long, to be deeper in love

Sunrise to sunrise, I will seek Your face
drawn by the spirit, to the promise of Your grace
my heart has found in You, a hope that will abide
here in Your presence, forever satisfied

A simple heartfelt song.
Thank You Jesus.

RAINBOW!

2011-07-13T10:37:00.000+08:00

red, and yellow, and pink and green..

purple, and orange, and blue...

i can see the rainbow, see the rainbow, see the rainbow too..

Genesis 9:13
" I set My rainbow in the cloud,
and it shall be for the sign of the covenant between Me and the earth. "

And so, I dreamt about beautiful rainbows again. Can;'t really remember the contend of the dream. But the only scene that is vivid in my mind, is the great, huge, beautiful rainbow, in a clear sky. And that's it. Just the rainbow, the clouds, the clear sky, and me. If I'm an artist, I would want to paint that picture.

Because I was inspired by XY on asking God about dreams, I've decided to try out! There, I was instantly reminded about the verse, about how the rainbow depicts the covenant God has with us. Touched. Then, on Sunday, Pastor Tan preached about "When God starts a work in you, He has no intention to stop it." That reminds me about what Mingli preached previously on "God's will for you." Then, the picture gets clearer when things naturally link themselves together.

So, 2 weeks before last week, I was reminded about the things that God wants me to do, and a week before, I've decided to step out in faith to ask God to prepare me for this. Now, the thing is, I'm constantly reminded about the same things. And, this really is an evident to me that He never changes the things He'd prepared and created us for. Though you may think that you are not that able to do what He wants, He doesn't change that plan! Amazed.

And so, relating this to the beautiful rainbows.. Rainbows reminded me of the covenant between Man and God. Covenant reminds me of His promises. I've dreamt about rainbows twice. (loving each time!) And I believe that it is a constant reminder of His promises in my life. It's not a coincidence. But rather, something done with a purpose. In Awe.

and I know that this will keep me going in this journey.

because of such reminders, I am motivated.

GOD YOU ARE SO CREATIVE! i like this!

I was searching for the verse on rainbows in the bible..

then , I realised, that it doesn't only represent the Covenant (promises), but also His Glory!

FANTASTIC!

Genesis 9:13
I set My rainbow in the cloud, and it shall be for the sign of the covenant between Me and the earth.
Genesis 9:12-14 (in Context) Genesis 9 (Whole Chapter)
Genesis 9:14
It shall be, when I bring a cloud over the earth, that the rainbow shall be seen in the cloud;
Genesis 9:13-15 (in Context) Genesis 9 (Whole Chapter)
Genesis 9:16
The rainbow shall be in the cloud, and I will look on it to remember the everlasting covenant between God and every living creature of all flesh that is on the earth.”
Genesis 9:15-17 (in Context) Genesis 9 (Whole Chapter)
Ezekiel 1:28
Like the appearance of a rainbow in a cloud on a rainy day, so was the appearance of the brightness all around it. This was the appearance of the likeness of the glory of the LORD.
Ezekiel 1:27-28 (in Context) Ezekiel 1 (Whole Chapter)
Revelation 4:3
And He who sat there was like a jasper and a sardius stone in appearance; and there was a rainbow around the throne, in appearance like an emerald.
Revelation 4:2-4 (in Context) Revelation 4 (Whole Chapter)
Revelation 10:1
[ The Mighty Angel with the Little Book ] I saw still another mighty angel coming down from heaven, clothed with a cloud. And a rainbow was on his head, his face was like the sun, and his feet like pillars of fire.
Revelation 10:1-3 (in Context) Revelation 10 (Whole Chapter)

Lord, words cannot express how amazing You are...
TYJ!

DHL

2011-07-09T00:37:00.000+08:00

stand for Director's Honors List!

I don't really know how and what to feel for this thing that has been constantly ringing in my mind.
Friends around me getting CGPA of 3.65 and 3.66, are getting that cert. I definitely wished I could have it too! Just the cert will do...

I'M JUST FUSSY ABOUT THIS!!

because it builds up my port folio!

GOD, HELP ME!!!!!
please~

The Ultimate Law of God is Holiness

2011-07-06T09:59:00.000+08:00

and I want to be able to be close to Him.

So thankful for such a great word last night.
I was telling Hunn that I feel so blessed and privileged to be able to hear such revelations from PK. I mean, I really believe that it's not an overnight thing for him to prepare such sermons, using great revelations after revelations. And all we did was to just listen to PK preached with open hearts. I believe it's a collection of different revelations that probably did not come within a day. And yes, we are so blessed by one night. So thankful.

Upon hearing about the "criteria" all the way from the gate of the temple to the sanctuary and the holy of holies, I told myself that I want to be that close to God. Afterall this is the reason to live life here on earth - to be like Christ so that we can be close to our Creator. But I need to be ready to go through ups and downs. This ain't a nice straight path, but it will be a FUN FILLED rollercoaster ride.
Lord help me through.

Someone that is entrusted with others' visions. This reminds me a lt about Mingli and us(cg). And I know that I got to be the one who says "Yes, I am willing to strive for that vision no matter how impossible it may seem." And I want to be one who can take ownership of someone else's vision, helping him/her fulfil it, so that I can be entrusted with my own vision from Him.

XY was praying last night for her cell. And I'm always very moved by her great passion for You. Thank You Lord for placing her in my life. Am always so blessed.

It is so true that all of us should possess a humble heart. Being humble in my opinion is one of those actions that is not that easy to have afterall. And that's why it's so important for us to depend on the HS and be able to rest in Him. Rest in His peace. I really agree that without His guidance, without the HS, I don't think I am able to do anything. Literally anything.

BREAKTHROUGHS ARE COMING.
But first, trials and sufferings must first come. Ironically, they are some great stuffs! These are the stuffs that will help perfect us.. Tough they may be, but the ending is always better than the beginning. Sometimes, it come to a point where I can't recognise certain situations as trials anymore. And I thank God for that ! I believe in the joy of the Lord, being my strength. I really do.

in all things, I give You praise!
for only You deserve.
TYJ!

off to bed moments

2011-07-05T01:17:00.000+08:00

thank God for this day, once again!

Just experienced some frustrated moments at home, with my bro's actions, mummy's loud nags (with love of cause!) and with my pink lappy that shut down on me 3 times. Mind you, all this happened while I was trying to type out my Business proposal for APEL, which I probably want to submit tomorrow without further procrastination.

Hunn went to bed..
made me feel a little weird at times, especially when we didn't really have the chance to talk much today.

But, on a lighter note, I posted a little something on his blog to surprise and give hunn some motivation for school this morning!

I wouldn't mind receiving this too :D

THANK GOD FOR THIS DAY! Tomorrow will be a greater one! In all things, I PRAISE HIM! :)
ILYJ!

shall shower, brush my teeth and sleep!
loves.

The will of God.

2011-07-04T09:41:00.000+08:00

Your calling in His kingdom.

the Glory of God;
just like the beautiful and strong light rays from the mighty sun.

Everybody is different. Everyone has their own individual calling! Though 2 may be called to be in the same ministry, often, each individuals play a different role in it. And this is one amazing thing to me. There are millions and billions of people out there, probably being called to be in the same ministry, but every single one of them is important, because no two man are duplicates. And therefore, we are all extraordinary, even more so with Christ in our lives.

I'm still in a state of shock with how I answered a "a pretty much yes", and then "uh huh" when Mingli asked me. Must be the Holy Spirit. Thankful though. But as for now, I really pray hard that He'll prepare me for that great adventure! I pray that He'll use me to do well in that area, so that He can be more edified in my life. You see, it's not about me, but Him in me.

Last weekend had been a great and fruitful one for me. It's not as though I'd done and completed many things. But it's more like I've experienced and learnt many things. Saturday taught me how to be a true friend, how to love my family more, how to control my frustration level in times of distress, and how to appreciate him more. Then, Sunday taught me how to sacrifice out of love, how every trials also mean rooms for His glory to shine, how God had changed our lives and is still changing, and how one's emotion can affect the people around him/her. Thank God for my weekends.

Come to think about, I was really looking forward to those! :D

Another week to conquer. More projects and assignments. I pray that He'll guide me through them all! And I believe so that He WILL :D

OFF I GO!
LORD, YOU'RE SO AMAZING!

One day..

2011-07-01T22:42:00.001+08:00

I want to be like those people on stage..
praising and worshipping Him with all of their hearts and souls.

and pretend that there's only me and Him...

Today's the LIVEJAM at church! And through the period before this event, I was just looking at the people around me with admiration. Why? Because they are given the opportunity to go up on the anointed stage to praise and worship the Lord. I told myself that they are really privileged to be able to do so! And, yeah, I must admit that I wished, hope and want to be like them too, one day... EVEN THOUGH I know I don't play any instruments there, nor can I sing well! But nonetheless, I think when that day comes, I would worship with all my heart and soul.. Pretending that there's no one else, but only me, and Him... How beautiful...

OH WELL!
enough of those aspirations.

I'm just so amazed at how God loves me so so so so so so very much! Come to think about it, I'll probably not be able to reach the end of His love for us. Was listening to All for love by Hillsongs, and Because of you by CHC. Indeed, He forgives us even before we ask, and truly, it's because of Him, that we can do so much more. It's because of Him, that we can live again. SO MANY things that He'd done. Amazed.

OH, Hunn told me something, something that he always tells me, that we must be prepared. For example, I would to be placed on stage to lead P&W, I must be prepared, and not freaked out or whatsoever.
And on top of such example, Hunn always use it often when it comes to seeking for something. He would often remind me about preparedness of heart. Indeed, it is really important for us to be prepared to receive, when we ask...

OKAY, currently waiting for my brother to come back so that we can go for a nice jog later on!
HR TIME! Excited. Not.
:D

GOD IS SO AMAZING! :D

His words are so true.

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especially when you see them coming to pass.
nothing can stop you from believing them.

Today's the 4th day of the week, and it's near the end of it already! How time flies. So much things to thank God for. On top of all the usual things I thank God for (ie. food, strength, love, peace etc.), I am superb thankful for my results thus far. Not all were ideal, but I believe that without Him, I wouldn't be able to smell these results!

@SHUYIT
friendship time is 100x better than homework time.

So, I wanted to start selling my clothes though I haven't sort them out yet. But ended up meeting my dearest Shuyi for dinner and then to town to support her fellow bandmates! Missed her quite a lot though.

As for now, this period, a few things that I really want to work on:
Grow in the Lord more, till I'm sooooo very sensitive to HS. (that has always been what I want.)
Help out in cg as much as possible. (less doubts, more faith.)
Understand, support, encourage, listen, forgive(if applicable!LOL) and love Honey during this tough period of the year. (concerts after concerts = practices after practices. UTs. commitments.)
Focus on my projects, lectures, and works so as to do well this sem!
People person. Christ-centered.
ONE MOREEEEE
Get _______ to pray for Stan & I! ( almost forget! )

Probably that's about it. This is all that I could think for now.

As for right now, I should start on my HRM PBL2 and not slack anymore! By God's grace

GOD IS SOOOOO SOOOO GOOOD TO ME :D

The the joy of the Lord

2011-06-29T11:52:00.000+08:00

is our strength.

" In the morning, I can't praising Your name, in the evening, I can't stop praising Your name."

Apparently this song is pretty addictive to me. Especially when my spirit is down, this is onw of those songs that would pull it up! Have been listening to this song ever since hunn showed me the link. Knew this song for quite a long time, but haven;t been listening. Until recent. Which I'm quite happy about!

Truth of the matter is that I love old songs. Both religious and in the music industry.

and I always do!

It's time that I do some stuffs to my blog. Was blog-hopping the other day, and after reading many inspiring posts, they'd served their purposes well. I'm inspired to return to blog-ing. And this is why I'm bloging. DUH!

Anyway, school had finally begun. Another great marathon to finish! Pretty excited and not at the same time to conquer this! Come to think about it again, it's just near 2months to mark the end of year 2.1! And that's incredibly quick! It's okay, "Can't stop praising" have been perking on my excitement buds! :D

Devotion time.

I'm currently reading the book of Job, and I am beginning to love this book. God calls Job a blameless, upright, one who fears God and shuns evil, and one who holds fast his integrity. All these were mentioned in the very beginning before all his iniquities began. And the reason why God allows the devil to touch Job's life because He knows that Job is able to soar out of all these well!

Was just thinking, I really want to impress God to this extend that He looks at me and is pleased and proud of His work, just like Job :D BUTTTTT, this comes with a package, which I know that I know I must be willing to accept ie. the tests and trials that are about to come.

GOD, HELP ME THROUGH! I AM WILLING, only if You are with me :D

And then, in the middle of the book, after all the major disasters, Job perceived them as punishments etc from God.

Hunn reminded me about how this is just like how many of us, being human, would have perceived when trials fall upon our lives. So true.

But the amazing thing about him is that on top of all these, Job trusted the Lord.

In the midst of the hurts, the pain, Job said "Though he slay me, yet will I trust Him... He shall be my salvation..." Job 13:15-16

THE ART OF TRUE TRUST!

not many could do that!

The moment my heart reads of these words, it melted. I was so moved by that. And I WANT TO HAVE AN ATTITUDE LIKE HIS :D

" Behold, happy is the man whom God corrects : Therefore do not despise the chastening of the Almighty."

Job5:17

:DDD
So, rejoice in trials and testings!
KEEP PRAISING!
in the morning, afternoon, evening!
in good times and bad times!

GOD IS SO SO GOOD !

HAPPY CHAPTER 10!

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the number of perfection.

Imperfect I am.

This love that I have for you may not be the best.

But I know, what we have in us, His love, is perfect.

and I know, we're going on to perfection.

10 things.
Thank you for this journey that we've gone through thus far.
Thank you for always motivating and encouraging me in times of distress.
Thank you for loving me like you've never loved someone before.
Thank you for your billions of hugs and kisses.
Thank you for forgiving me.
Thank you for always asking " how's your day babe?".
Thank you for being the one who calls, instead of me.
Thank you for always smiling even at times when you don't feel like.
Thank you for being my charming, and awesome boyfriend.
and finally,
Thank you for loving God, me, the people around you, and yourself.

There are definitely more things to write. Can't think of what for now. But babe, you've been the best to me :D Always understanding my, my feelings, my actions. I thank God that it is you who is my other half and not someone else. As every 22nd comes, I suddenly ran out of things to thank you for, to say to you. But, seriously, I still want to thank you for EVERY SINGLE thing. The fun, joy, laughther, tears, and most importantly love, really are things that I don't want to take for granted. Oh well, on top of all this, I ought to and want to apologise for every unhapy moments I've caused in this relationship. I bet it must be tough on you to have tolerate all the craps and nonsense that I've produced here. I'm sorry if I failed to fully understand you and to love you more. I'M STILL LEARNING! more years for me to keep trying! :D so yup. that's about it.

how could I end the post without wishing you?

so, HAPPY CHAPTER 10!!

indeed, it's from glory to glory to gloryyy.

and,

I LOVE YOU BABE :D

so much!

thankYouJesus.

dreams

2011-06-18T10:47:00.002+08:00

OH MY GOSH!

this is almost a miracle that I blog!

Anyway, was just pondering..

after the dream last night, only one question remained in my mind.

and the truth of the matter is that I'm not sure..

Imagine that happening in years to come.

nope, not able to see it yet.

oh well..

I'm still wondering.

it's all up to Him :D

GOD IS ALWAYS GOOD!

that's all!

HAPPY CHAPTER 9!

2011-05-22T01:44:00.001+08:00

"HEY BABY,

I THINK I WANNA MARRY YOU!"

Every time I think of you, I smile. You've been such a great blessing to me. And I never fail to say 'I love you' to you, because, I really do. Thank you so much for your faithfulness, love and sacrifices. You know, 9months were not that smooth going, but I want to walk this wonderful journey with you, and only you.

i just want to say, babe,

I LOVE YOU :D

pinky promises

2011-05-18T10:06:00.007+08:00

when you say "I promise",

mean it.

The good thing about the God we serve, is that His promises are promises.

He's a man of His words.

None of them are ever broken/undone.

And not everyone is like Him.

He's so good.

Whatever He'd promised King David, He kept to it, even though the tribe of Judah was horrendous.

Yet for the covenant He'd made with King David, He didn't cut them off from the earth.

I'm still amazed at how He's able to do that!

MUCH TO LEARN FROM.

LOVE LOVE LOVE

2011-05-04T12:00:00.005+08:00

is the theme this season.

And I really love the word LOVE.

One thing : " Love is not just a commitment, it's a Choice "

And that is what I believe in.

To love, you need to first make that decision to love.

What is love?

4 Love suffers long and is kind; love does not envy; love does not parade itself, is not puffed up; ⁵does not behave rudely, does not seek its own, is not provoked, thinks no evil; ⁶ does not rejoice in iniquity, but rejoices in the truth; ⁷ bears all things, believes all things, hopes all things, endures all things.

1 Cor 13:4-7

NKJV

Yes, this is love.

4Love endures long and is patient and kind; love never is envious nor boils over with jealousy, is not boastful or vainglorious, does not display itself haughtily.
⁵It is not conceited (arrogant and inflated with pride); it is not rude (unmannerly) and does not act unbecomingly. Love (God's love in us) does not insist on its own rights or its own way, for it is not self-seeking; it is not touchy or fretful or resentful; it takes no account of the evil done to it [it pays no attention to a suffered wrong].
⁶It does not rejoice at injustice and unrighteousness, but rejoices when right and truth prevail.
⁷Love bears up under anything and everything that comes, is ever ready to believe the best of every person, its hopes are fadeless under all circumstances, and it endures everything [without weakening].

1 Cor 13:4-7

Amp Bible

GOD IS SO GOOD.

So good to love us.

Awesome wonder, Awestruck wonder.

At the mention of Your Name :)

And I choose LOVE.

HAPPY CHAPTER 8!

2011-04-22T01:44:00.000+08:00

babe!

I love these facial emotions.

I love the guy even more.

and I love the creator the most.

I must say, this month, just like all the other months, there were ups and downs.

and I realised that it's pretty important to be understanding. And it takes a whole lot of effort to be one understanding partner.

Thank you for every single thing that you've done.

for showering your love upon me,

for being who you are,

I thank you.

for this is who I love you for.

I love you honey (:

thank God it's good friday.

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THANK YOU JESUS FOR THE CROSS.

my Saviour.

my Lord.

my Encourager.

my Comforter.

my Peace.

my Shelter.

my ALL.

iloveYou.

with all I am.

with all my heart.

good friday's coming.

2011-04-21T12:50:00.006+08:00

so is Easter, and OUR 8th Month!

Isn't this sooooooo cute?

the power of love!

*giggles*

See, how time flies.. This whole week haven't been the best of the best, probably because I had to visit the polyclinic and to have regular intakes of drugs for flu, cough, and sore throat. Had to skip band practice - shouldn't be too happy about that given the fact that I'm not motivated to practice my parts for the CCA day thingy. So this means, I'm not prepared! AHHH noooooo..

Am so reluctant for school to start and at the same time excited for it to start. mixed feelings. new friends to make and new things to learn. Here we go, continuing on this learning journey! It's time I get my table cleared up for more notes to come in again. Here we go!

Tomorrow's Good Friday.

The great sacrifice He'd made for us. Amazingly great love He's for us. Thank You Jesus. Thank You Lord.

"You can sacrifice without loving, but you can love without sacrificing."

and this love is not just any ordinary love, but AGAPE love.

Am so grateful.

Tomorrow's service will be so so so good. so looking forward to it. Hoping that Xinyan, Shuyi and Wilson will be able to make it for one of the services. God is Good.

I pray hard that HS will do a work in their hearts before they enter His house to be filled with His presence and love! I'm excited.

Tomorrow's our Chapter 8! Don't really know what to say or expect. But definitely thank God for these 8 months, and yup, it's definitely by His grace and mercy that we're at where we are. Thank God for him in my life, the one who tries his best to be there for me 24/7, to make me smile when im down, to pick me up when I fall...

Thank you babe.

and above all, thank You Lord!

GOD IS ALWAYS GOOD! (:

It is Your love.

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that covers all.

and i'm still in awe.

and, we choose love.

Dearie and I had a great time talking, sharing, praying, and most importantly loving. I really believe that communication is very important to not only maintain a relationship or a friendship, but at the same time grow to learn about each other better.

We kinda concluded that God must always be the 'Vertical' beam between us. And, everything that we do should really be revolved around Him. Without Christ, we, wouldn't be possible. Without His love, we wouldn't know how to love. Without His substantial grace and mercy, we wouldn't know how to forgive. God is so good!

Thank God for my life.

Thank God for my family&friends.

Thank God for my boyfriend.

"Learn how to say 'thank you' when someone praises you, but at the same time not think highly of yourself."

Hunn reminded me : Gratitude & Humility.

Oh, my boy is so awesome!

GOD IS SO GOOD!

sacrifice.

2011-04-11T00:19:00.003+08:00

NKJV
24 Most assuredly, I say to you, unless a grain of wheat falls into the ground and dies, it remains alone; but if it dies, it produces much grain.

MSG
24-25"Listen carefully: Unless a grain of wheat is buried in the ground, dead to the world, it is never any more than a grain of wheat. But if it is buried, it sprouts and reproduces itself many times over. In the same way, anyone who holds on to life just as it is destroys that life. But if you let it go, reckless in your love, you'll have it forever, real and eternal.

John 12:24

so much He'd done for us.

all for LOVE's sake.

that's what He chose.

it's MY turn to choose.

and I chose to LOVE.

Loving God wholeheartedly and people fervently.

God reminded me something so important. Loving people is not simply expressing the three most commonly used words "I love you" to him or her. The moment you dislike him/her, or bear grudges on him/her, that's not loving anymore, whether or not the feeling is great or little. Being able to love is when you are able to genuinely forgives him/her for their actions/words etc.

I really want to keep reminding myself this revelation.

Because I am determined to have an authentic & genuine relationship with Christ.

I pray, as I grow in Him, it will come to a point where people will know that I'm His true follower and through this, many souls will be saved.

But first, I've got to make a decision, and I choose love.

GOD IS ALWAYS GOOD.

even if the situation isn't.

change.

2011-04-02T23:27:00.008+08:00

starts from ME.

some day I wanna sit on a ferris wheel.

one day I will.

What a long day for me this day. A day full of happenings. Goods & bads, I thank God for this day.

LYSB have been improving, thank God! And one statement heard remained in my mind : ".. it's by the grace of God!.." said by Mr de! Even he, credited the great to God. Taught me a lot man. And then I was reminded about my secondary school band days. Those tireless practices that all of us went through before syf etc. Fond memories, I call them. Another highlight for the practice was that AMANDA TAN& MANDY TAN were back in action ! AWESOMENESS :) I was more happy than happy! Thank God.

Then CELL MEETING! It feels good though! First official cell meeting in the "new" cell. Mingli preached awesomely well with an awesome word. It's very motivating and encouraging!

New seasons in life means new breakthroughs, new life!

New life means, putting away your old you and being a new you.

Everything about you, deep down to your thoughts and character. These are minor things she mentioned that have great impact on me though.

See, the little are important! :)

After cell, had a heart to heart talk with Ian. Haven't been doing that for the longest time.

Oh well, I love his courage, I love is love towards her, I love how he thinks so much about her, I love how he tolerates her, I love how he comes for cell despite the countless challenges faced. God is good nonetheless.

I believed that God reminded me of this first that I didn't really know, though I've mentioned this in my life quite a number of times. "Philippians 4:6 "

NKJV:

^"6 Be anxious for nothing, but in everything by prayer and supplication, with thanksgiving, let your requests be made known to God; ⁷ and the peace of God, which surpasses all understanding, will guard your hearts and minds through Christ Jesus."

NLT:

^" ⁶ Don’t worry about anything; instead, pray about everything. Tell God what you need, and thank him for all he has done. ⁷ Then you will experience God’s peace, which exceeds anything we can understand. His peace will guard your hearts and minds as you live in Christ Jesus. "

See, His greatness ! :)

Thank You Jesus! :)

GREAT ACTIONS,

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with a humble heart.

That hope that never fail.

Him.

"And He came down with them and stood on a level place with a crowd of His disciples and a great multitude of people from all Judea and Jerusalem, and from the seacoast of Tyre and Sidon, who came to hear Him and be healed of their diseases. "
Luke 6:17

Jesus is such a humble Man. Despite having the authority over the people, yet He humbled Himself to be like one of us. Going through trials and temptations that He does not deserve. All these were done all for love sake. The love that He had for us. Thank You Jesus.

He came down, even though He could just remain on the top and speak to the multitudes. And the amazing thing is that He did not just come down from the mountain top, but He went on a level place with the crowd.

Level :

–adjective

having no part higher than another; having a flat or evensurface.

being in a plane parallel to the plane of the horizon;horizontal.

equal, as one thing with another or two or more things withone another.

This means level place is whereby Jesus is of at the same level as the crowd. This reminds me of something I heard of from somewhere, I don't remember when. Apparently, by standing or sitting on a chair while the crowd is on the floor, shows that you have the authority over them.

So, applying what I've known to this verse, it really shows how humble He is the people. Coming all the way down from the top is not easy. Not many people are willing to give up such a position to be at a same level as the others. That's why they say " The right decision may not be the most popular one. " And on top of being humble, He, having a heart of compassion and empathy healed those who are in need.

Oh, I adore Him.

so much.

and I thank God for sending Him as MY ROLE MODEL.

Lord, You are SO GOOD.

I realised, babe.

2011-03-31T17:27:00.003+08:00

I did..

It didn't quite feel like the same.

But it is now. Thank God.

And so, they say busyness just simply drift you away from the people around you.

It's true. At the least, for me, yes it's true. Especially the one so close to me.

When you told me that it's as if we haven't met for months, I must say, I felt the same too. Probably it's back to the fact that I've decided to do other things, and hence, not fully giving you all my attention, and thus not meeting your needs.

but, I'm still learning.

Met a new friend, Sherri. Talked quite a lot and that's good for a start.

" God place changes in our lives to help us to go to another level up. And it's until we're at our comfort zone, then He'll begin to add in more 'spices' to help you get out of the comfortable zone. However, if you're not yet in your comfort zone, this means you are in the changing zone, where you've go to make that decision to face it and depend on God. Then eventually when you finally get comfortable again, THE CYCLE REPEATS. "

but nonetheless, He is The Lord, Our God. And He is good!

amen&amen

Not missing the past.

2011-03-30T11:14:00.003+08:00

'cause it's THE past..

And so, I've finally returned to LYSS to have my garlic bread with chicken meat! "Add all the sauces except cheese!" The school had changed quite a fair bit and the number of young teachers are on the rise! There are so many teachers I haven't seen before! But nonetheless, thank God most of my favourite teachers are still teaching there.

LYSB! The first word that came into my mind when I saw the them was "tensed". Though SYF is just next thurs, I guess, being so tensed up and stressed are not the emotions they should carry along now. I mean, these are like barriers that prevented them to enjoy what they are playing - no expression and passion?. Wasn't very hopeful for them at the beginning, but after doing what we did the other time, I didn't think that way! Oh well...

I think I haven't been making time for them. And when I finally decided to make extra time for my section, it feels like it's almost impossible for it to happen. To me, I just want to be a senior. Whether or not they treat me as one, I still want to be there for them. I kinda want to see them going up on stage on the 7th of April with confidence and excitement because they know their work! Oh well~

Someone told me about something.

All of us were in shock and at the same time in sorrow and empathy for him. So, this is life. This is how the world works. Shuyi kinda felt the same way as me, about not really knowing how to respond to this situation. A little helpless. But, I guess, all we can do is to just listen and be there for him.

ACCEPTANCE. the act of accepting or the state of being accepted .

Accepting him/her for who he/she is, and this includes his/her desires, passion and character and everything.

Probably I'm in no position to say all this, but I'm still learning! sigh! God is Good nonetheless, and that is one reason that keeps me going! :)

note to self : be humble, like Gideon who credited everything to The Lord.

note to you know who : I'm sorry for not giving that Undivided Attention that you needed.. ily.

GOD IS GREAT.

YESTERDAY...

2011-03-28T11:48:00.002+08:00

O.O

Finally I'm blogging some rants here again!

The number of days that flew so quickly and way more than expected.

This past one week had been a learning journey. There's so much to learn from the people around me. And I remembered the importance of having an open heart so that I can learn from the different conversations made with different people.

FELLOWSHIP session with the new E397 was not too bad. Or rather, I love it here. Though some part of me still miss the past where I talk to people I've known for years. But I guess, it's better this way now that I can mix with new friends, and have a new start again. I will always remember what Yingiet told me "move on". Just two words that requires you to make a decision with.

Yesterday was AI, Da Zhong pri, ITE West and LYSB 's combined concert. Apparently, in terms of musicality wise, Tanglewood was not well performed :( Hmmm, nonetheless, I know, if they start being focused in what they want to achieve, and express their feelings etc, I'm sure they will do well! Not losing the faith for this band that I used to be crazily active in!

I'M STILL KEEPING THE FAITH!

Today, I'm gonna spend most of the time at home, gonna do housework, practice my flute a little etc. All these before passing ET's present to him and also before band pract! So reluctant to go for band practice suddenly. And that is bad! Oh well, I should just go anyway!

GOD IS GOOD, EVEN WHEN THINGS AREN'T!

CHAPTER 7!

2011-03-22T01:44:00.000+08:00

WE'VE MADE IT TO THE NEXT LEVEL! :)

no, chapter!

thankGod!

not easy, but by God's grace...

not smooth journey, but I'M LOVING THIS ROLLER COASTER RIDE!

because I'm going through this with Daddy God and YOU! yes you hunn!

LOVE YOU DEAR :)

more than yesterday, BAYBEHHHHHHH!!!!!

*pinches your BAAAA!*

A NEW DAY!

2011-03-19T13:52:00.002+08:00

HELLO NEW HOME!

Thank God for this place.

a place in the marketplace, for the marketplace, to penetrate the marketplace!

I am so so SOOOOO excited for this moment.

It feels like a moment that we've been all waiting for since day one.

The countless efforts put into preparing this, incredibly loads!

GOD IS SO GOOD:)

Though I've not been there YET, I kinda know that it'll be tremendously great for a start!

AMEN&AMEN!

Falling in love with Him again.

2011-03-16T23:26:00.003+08:00

jurong west st91

Yeah, I guess, it's when you realize that He's not near anymore, then you will begin to realize how much you've actually missed Him.

Have I reached that moment?

i think i did.

God is good nonetheless.

Recently, Pride was the thing that has been in my heart, and I really believe that it has the ability to draw you away from people and from God. And my prayer ever since was that God will remove this prideful heart of mine and in turn, place in me a Humble heart. So that I may be like Him.

That evening, I fell in love with Him again.

That evening, I was reminded of His moments with me.

That evening, I told God that I might fail Him again, but I'm gonna do my best to make this r/s work!

I AM gonna do my best!

Pastor preached something about not just reading the word, but to meditate on it. That really smack right into my face. (WHICH IS GOOD! ) And yup, it's only when you understand then you can apply into your life and then there's a purpose for reading the bible ! (: GOD IS GOOD.

Something is bothering me now...

That is, MY RESULT IS GOING OUT TOMORROW! And I'm starting to freak out! But I told myself, God and Hunn, that "No matter what my results are gonna be, I WILL STILL PRAISE HIM!" Because He really deserve them :) To think back again, daddy God had been there for me, encouraging me, pulling me through the days of my Poly life. And yes, I've done my best and had let Him do the rest! GOD IS GOOD!

on top of that, WE'RE GOING INTO SUNTEC THIS WEEKEND! Had 2 great services at JW for the past 2 weeks and I felt so much like I'm at home. Thank God for those weeks :)

Gonna say a nice "goodbye" to that place, and hello to the new place! :) ALL GLORY TO HIM!!!

nevertheless, no pain no gain. And this means that there ought to be some obstacles to overcome, personally and as a whole! Not intending to be complacent anytime soon..

I LOVE JESUS!

SUNSHINE, RAIN, RAINBOW

2011-03-12T16:22:00.005+08:00

the power of understanding, is that it helps you to see.

and so, sometimes in the midst of the sunshine season,

there ought to have some stormy times, when rain starts pouring.

all these happen so that He can be ever more clearer to us,

through the presence of the rainbow...

GOD IS GOOD!

excitement level up!

2011-02-27T00:42:00.005+08:00

but some part of me is worrying.

bad.

Tomorrow, or rather, later's service marks the end of one great adventurous chapter in CHC's life. I'm really excited for service, and I'm REALLY looking forward for it.

I really want to be part of such transformation moments.

and that's why I've not left.

Cell group meeting was good this evening. Talking about recognising our identity in Him-I'm a child of God. This 5 words " I'm a child of God " also means that we all have His DNA, and yes, we all have His attention. And hence, I really want to live up to this fact that I have His DNA and not wanting to take it for granted! Gosh! Oh yes, and about the attention thing, I guess, every parent would pay special attention to their own kids, as compared to others. That's how it works. So whenever you feel like no one cares, or like you are all alone, fret not! For this is true that He loves you! If only we could desire more of Him, and to yearn for more, He will give :)

On my way back, I was thinking about what hunn had reminded me of. Things happened and he just said : its just like how God just want some time from you. (something like that!)

I was really pondering over what he said, and realized that I haven't been really spending time with Daddy God, and yes, I MISS HIM.

During cell meeting, someone mentioned that Christianity is about having a relationship with God. It's true. And by applying the POM concepts, relationship lasts because of communication. SO, WHEN YOU DON'T COMMUNICATE WITH THE OTHER PARTY, YOU'RE NOT BUILDING R/S!

Yes, and so I've decided to talked to daddy God. :) Cos I really miss Him. I know. And as much as I miss Him, I know He misses me too. YUP, I'm so gonna gave Him His moment daily because I LOVE HIM :)

So, the moral of this story is, COMMUNICATION IS CRUCIAL TO BUILD AND MAINTAIN ANY R/S!

GOD IS GOOD :)

seriously...

2011-02-26T00:48:00.004+08:00

Dear God, I seriously don't like to feel like this, at this time, at this period, with Your gift to me.

But crying is beautiful isn't it?

Crying is an expression afterall.

I love You Lord.

smiling.

i'lltry.

Indescribable joy within

2011-02-24T12:11:00.003+08:00

comes from incredible God

wrestling with time.

Tomorrow's my first paper, gonna lift up the whole 5 papers into His hands.

And I think it's because of this decision made, there's this joy within that motivates me to study somehow. God is good (:

I pray that You'll multiply my time, provide wisdom and understanding, and most importantly your love (:

Thank You Daddy God!

Whatever the outcomes I may receive, You are still the greatest and I WILL praise Your deserving Name :)

GOD IS GOOD!

amen&amen

OUR CHAPTER 6!

2011-02-22T01:44:00.000+08:00

Dearest Stanleyszetojiaming,

This song lyrics is dedicated to you, and for you. (just visualize me singing to you k! )

I TURN TO YOU - (Christina Aguilera)

When I'm lost in the rain
In your eyes I know I'll find the light
To light my way, when I'm scared losing ground
When my world is going crazy you can turn it all around
And when I'm down you're there pushing me to the top
You're always there giving me all you've got

For a shield, from the storm for a friend, for a love
To keep me safe and warm, I turn to you
For the strength to be strong, for the will to carry on
For everything you do, for everything that's true, I turn to you

When I lose the will to win
I just reach for you and I can reach the sky again
I can do anything 'cause your love is so amazing
'Cause your love inspires me
And when I need a friend you're always on my side
Giving me faith taking me through the night

For a shield, from the storm, for a friend, for a love
To keep me safe and warm, I turn to you
For the strength to be strong and for the will to carry on
For everything you do I turn to you yeah

For the arms to be my shelter through all the rain
For truth that will never change for someone to lean on
But for a heart I can rely on through anything
For the one who I can run to oh I turn to you

For a shield from the storm, for a friend, for a love
To keep me safe and warm, I turn to you
For the strength to be strong, for the will to carry on
For everything you do, for everything that's true
For everything you do, for everything that's true, I turn to you

I know I can't really sing, so I've decided to dedicate these lyrics to you and only you. It's true that besides daddy God, the next person I turn to is you. The chorus is one chunk that I love so much, 'cause every time I sing it, I'm reminded of you.

For a shield from the storm
- you've been protecting me whenever you're with me.

For a friend
- you've been my bestest friend since day zero.

For a love to keep me save and warm
- you're this love apart from His love, that embraces me.

I turn to you
- yes, I turn to you.

For the strength to be strong
- your countless encouragements, hugs, they're my strength.

For the will to carry on

- your presence in my life, your smile, most importantly your love.

For everything you do, for everything that's true, I turn to you.

- and this shows how a major role you are playing in my tiny life. how important you are to me. how much i love you.

We all know that 6 months are not as easy as they seemed in the beginning. But God is good! I call you my honey, my dear, my love, because you've seen every side of me. Those moments when I broke out in tears, laughed my lungs out, and especially those times when I just got really upset and pissed off over certain things. You've seen them all.

Just want to reassure you about my love for you. Mushy it may sound, but it's true. One thing I know is that loving someone whole heartedly is really having the ability to fall in love with that person over and over again with ease. And that's what I'm experiencing with you hunn.

For all the countless sacrifices you've made for me, for all the encouragements you've given me, for all the affection you've put in this relationship, for all the surprises you've placed in my life, and for you being you to me... all these are way greater than all the emotional struggles that we've faced. 'cause love covers all.

So dear, thank you for this 6 beautifully painted months. Some parts of the picture may be damaged, but I believe that it's the scars that made the picture complete. I know I'm not an easy girl. I've been the pain in the ass a VAST number of times, I'm sorry. But nonetheless, I thank God that we've gone through all these, 'cause through the storms, then we'll know what true shelter and warmth are. And all these, I've found in you.

honey...

3 words, "I APPRECIATE YOU"

1 meaning, " I LOVE YOU"

Thank you for this wonderful journey.

loves, dorothy!

BIG MONSTER!

2011-02-21T12:03:00.004+08:00

( try to recall when was this)

though there were ups and downs,

one thing I know for sure is that

"I LOVE YOU"

rejoicing.

2011-02-20T16:10:00.004+08:00

is the product of being His child.

smiling is just the simplest gesture to make even to a stranger.

and you never know, you may make their day!

- a way of bringing hope into someone's life?

amen.

Pastor phil preached something awesomely great!

I like it when he said something about being happy because He touches you. Don't you feel anything when the elephant steps on you? Or how about when you put your finger in the socket? The pain when the elephant stepped you, the current flowing through you when you put your finger in the socket. So, when He touches you, just ONE touch, don't you feel happy? The contentment and happiness in you.

Oh well, I certainly did!

The power of just 1 touch.

and you will never forget that moment.

GOD IS GREAT! :)

soaking in His presence.

2011-02-19T23:54:00.003+08:00

" I love it when we talk.

i dislike it when there's complete silence. "

Today's combine cell meeting was really a phenomenal one. Frankly speaking, it has been quite awhile since I experienced such moments, sessions that will leave something at the back of my mind to rethink about.

All we did today was to Praise and worship Him. That is all it takes to enter His presence. And I realized that we do not necessarily need someone to preach the word to you, but to hear it for yourself directly from Him - rhema. CGL was saying that today we don't have a word, but, I was quite certain that most of us had our word. Through worshiping, He speaks, He reminds.

I was thinking, personally, it's not all the time that I receive new words/revelations from Him, but rather, most of the times, especially in times of needs, He often REMIND me about the promises, and words that He'd spoken to me before. So, I guess, all these words are precious after all! Not just using these for once, and forgets about it the next season, but rather, to reuse them when faced with similar situations.

GOD IS GOOD.

Another thought had just arrived.

" Jealousy does kill one inner soul. "

This chat reminds me so clearly about my secondary school life. Didn't see it coming. Two words, "it hurts" but on top of that "it's okay". Taking in countless deep breaths, telling myself that it's just normal. Closing my eyes, trying to hold back my tears. Biting my teeth together, hoping that I wouldn't frown.

It's so funny how I wish that I have never gotten these results..

nonetheless, thank God for them.

New skin, finally.

2011-02-19T01:58:00.004+08:00

how nice, to rest, and spend time with the lappy.

"when i look up in the sky above,
wonder how my life has changed,

wonder how your love it came to me.."

all my fears so far away...

Today's the last day of my year 1 moment. And I thank God for everything that I've experienced throughout this year. Time flies, and that's true. Just a blink of eyes, from long hair to short hair. Long fringe to bangs. How interesting. But I enjoyed every moment.

Oh well, rested today, went for a 30min jog, and met up with shuyi. I'm content.

Exams are just a week ahead, and trust me, I'm not yet ready for anything. I thank God for my current results and for guiding me through my lectures and tutorials all these while. Seriously, it's not of my ability to be able to experience all these, but His. And I'm so thankful and grateful for them. Thank God.

Now, in my final lap this sem, I pray hard that God will still continue to be in the midst of me and my studying moments. Gosh, I am really gonna to just depend on Him. Doing my best and letting Him do the rest. Yup, that's what I'm intending to do! :)

Brothers are talking about some church and personal issues. Some part of me agree though. Whatever they mentioned kinda triggered me to start thinking about what I've been doing and all. Hmmm, and the question is, are you doing all these for the Lord, or out of fear? And then, are you gonna stand strong, or fall?

Indeed, behind every smile, there's always a story to tell.

As human being, I guess, one mistake we often make is to see things at the surface? I don't know. But I know I do see things this way some times. And because of this approach of perceiving, misunderstanding and confusions begin to enter. Like now, I'm starting to ruminate about my life. Doubts?= in need of clarification = seek God.

But yeah, at the end of the day, maybe I should realign my purpose to the Lord occasionally.

God is good, nonetheless.

Just have to keep believing yeah. Standing strong.

Tired I may be at times, but in these times, He is strong - my strength.

PUJI TUHAN.

All ready to start studying tomorrow! :)

hunn, you're special in my eyes.

My valentine tonight..

2011-02-14T23:56:00.003+08:00

He is great.

He is awesome.

He is my sunshine.

He is my love.

Basically, He is all these to me because we serve the same Daddy God and that He is greater than all these... This explains everything now. HAHAHAHAHHA

V.Day for me is not just to spend time with just hunn, but also to show the people around you some love, through appreciating them. And on top of all these, Him, the one above that deserves all. Oh well, God is just greater than great. One of the reasons He's too great to me, is because He gave me Mr Szetoooooooo :)

OK! I love the gift from him.

I love him more.

I love you hunn.

ready and patient.

2011-02-12T01:10:00.004+08:00

to be ready and patient for His second coming.

to know that He'll be back soon is a thing,

to be READY is another.

to be able to wait PATIENTLY for His return is another.

interesting uh?

such words could just ring bells in my head!

nonetheless, GOD IS GOOD (:

i love to read the word of God. especially in times when i feel faithless.

cos its the content of the book that makes me smile at the end of the reading period.

God is Good!!!

THE POWER OF HIS WORDS...

2011-02-08T00:40:00.004+08:00

greatest of all words.

" Then the Lord said, "Let there be light"; and there was light. " Gen 1:3

the power of His words.

Though hearts may be shattered, hopes may be broken..

one thing I know for sure that He's still here, seeing us through.

One word from Him, and everything is never gonna be the same again.

Just one word, and your confidence increases.

Just one word, and your tears will be wiped away.

Doubts may come, just one word from Him, and fears will be turned to faith.

This is such a weird moment for me. Maybe normal to some, but me? not at all. I know she cares and wants the best for me, but her words are hurtful. Though deep inside I know she doesn't mean it that way, unbearable tears just roll down.

Frankly speaking, I'm near to giving up though this is just the beginning of more to come. But I want to do what I preach and that is to KEEP ON KEEPING ON! If my other half is pushing this hard to pass through this barrier, so do I. For we are all in this together!!

Everytime she says something about my another half, I can't help it but to just begin to feel annoyed, yet forlorn at the same time. I must admit, I'm never a strong girl within. I mean, emotionally. And I'm beginning to spot that the devil LOVES to attack me in such areas. THIS IS DRIVING ME NUTS.

Today is the third day of my so-called "catastrophe" !

Enough of mourning. I know I haven't really fully express out my feelings and all, but it doesn't matter. Every night, I will just tell myself that tomorrow will be a better day. Troubles may come, but His love never make me feel dead! And I call that "The Grace of Daddy God."

God is good la.

Bro told me that I should just pray and ask God for just the word for this season. 'cause if this is really the God given r/s then He will give you that specific word to keep you going (the stars, His promises). And yes, I pray that He will reveal that particular word to me & my another half individually. God is just good. I know that One word will change my life.

NONETHELESS, despite the situations, I will smile. For He is my Joy, Peace, Love, Grace... my All.

In all things, I still thank You Lord,

for You and only You deserves ALL.

hunn, im still running this.

not intending to stop!

MHY MTT! :))))

GOD IS GOOD:)

2011-01-27T23:58:00.005+08:00

one little thing i've learnt was to be faithful in the little things.

then you will be contend with simplicity.

and my happiness comes from him & Him ;)

Thank God it's friday!

This week have been a real tiring and emotional draining one!

Not the best week to experience, but nonetheless, I thank God for these. I mean, in the end, the process really matters a whole lot. From submissions, to tests, to presentations, to endless lectures.. Interesting fair bit! Trust me, I really feel like giving up at times, but GOD, carried me through! Thank God! Really.

Indeed, He's my strength, and my ALL.

One verse that really seen me through the week is

"Commit your works to the Lord, And your thoughts will be established. "
Prov 16:3

Isn't that that such a pretty verse? Thank God for such promises!

Another thing that I've learnt through this week, is really to depend on God in ALL situations!

In down times, we need His strength keep on going.

In glorious moments, we need His strength to humble ourselves.

Was reading about Moses! God is really AWESOME! One thing I read that impacted me was the part when He said that He hardened Pharoah's heart so that He could do more wonders in the land, to reveal to the Egyptians that He is Lord!

It's really encouraging, because it just reminded me that whatever the Lord had planned for us are all for a good cause. And through the good times, we glorify Him. Through the bad times, we glorify Him too! I mean, it's especially in the dark, then the light will shine even brighter!

Okaye!

OH YES, another thing, the bible specified that God told moses " I am the Lord."

Indeed, He is the Lord. Not just any other Lord, but the Lord of Lords. He IS the Lord of all things, even in all situations etc~

and the best part is,

I AM HIS CHILD :)

WOOOHHOOOOOOO!!!

GOD IS LOVE!

AND I LOVE GOD!

oh yes, to add on, hunn told me something, about forgiveness. Love brings forth forgiveness. And without love, you won't forgive. I mean, this is such an amazing thing about love. They say love is blind, sometimes to be truthful, I disagree. Because I fell inlove with my darling because of who he is. and that's all! I love God like crazy! and, this shows that IM NOT BLIND :)

WAHAHAHHAHA!

ILY THE KING OF KINGS!

ILY my MI TANG TANG! :)

i love you, more.

2011-01-24T00:57:00.002+08:00

Sometimes, giving up is not an easy way out afterall.

Oh well, tired at times...

We've gotta hold on tight onto His promises and Run this race with ENDURANCE!

I don't like to hear the word 'sorry', especially from someone dear..

but then again, GOD IS GOOD.

He knows the thoughts that we thought, and His plans are made.

I'm still excited to run this race with Him and him..

Knowing that if God is with me, who then can be against us?..

I'm so tired. Tired of crying! ahahah!

Hunn, I've said what I wanna say! :)

seriously, it felt like it was over, JUST NOW.

that's so real.

but okay! I LOVE YOU LA! :)

Indeed, prayer is the best way to comfort one's self.

God would only make bad things turn to good (;

ALL GLORY TO GOD.